My name is Kerry. I'm a 43 year old stay at home mum to a 4 year old daughter. I live on a farm.
The last 10 years of my life have been pretty rough, but the last 18 months have really done me in with my husband walking out. He has just come back, fingers crossed things work out. Well, he's been back for 13 months now & finally things look like they're getting better for us all. My anxiety is still sky high though, don't know what to do next.
Anyhow, I've realised that I have depression and have been depressed for quite some time. I've always had problems with anxiety & of course with my hubby walking out, well it certainly didn't help much that's for sure!!! I've also known for ages that loneliness is a huge issue with me and that I'm really needing some new friends!!! I need to somehow kick start living life again!!! Somehow I need to conquer my fears!!!
The farm I live on isn't mine, it's my parents and it's now for sale, so when it sells, I most probably will be forced to move. Anyhow, I have 8 pet sheep [many more have died than I have saved unfortunately; hand rearing orphan lambs isn't the easiest thing to do]. I love cats, although I don't actually have one at the moment.
I've had counselling for years & years but I just don't seem to be benefiting from it. I need to find a new way. I know that I've lost 'me'. I need to find 'me' again. I need a whole new life!! So here I am. Please feel free to add me as a friend!!
love & hugs to all