Life is just a rollercoaster these days. I have learn to rely on God to help me through this storm.  God is continuing to daily give me strength to make it another day, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have a friend like him to help me.

Today I get to go and pamper some troubled women, I so enjoy doing this.  At first I didn't think I could give a foot massage, touching others feet, rubbing out and stress.  I just would remind myself how Jesus went around the table and wash the feet of his disciples at the Last Supper, and now I feel it an honor to wash the feet of these women.

I am no sure how things get so out of hand.  Staff don't do their job and are called on the carpet for it.  This goes on for 3 months and so I do evaluations, and all hell breaks loose.  All I wanted was for staff to do their job.

I read a book called "Dangerous Surrender" by Kay Warren. What a great book it made me open my eyes to what is happening around me in my community.  In her book she calls for small groups to go out and help HIV/AIDs patients.  I am looking into getting ths started, Sunday night study group is looking for a way to do service but is also looking for something new. The church is going to get the start up kit for my use and I would be working with a pastor.

I am not sure were this is going to take me. 

All I know for sure is the I need the Holy Spirit with showing me the way.

It seems like a long time since I have been to this site.  There is so much happening in my life I just don't seem to find the time to sit and spend time on the computer.

Still haveing trouble finding time to really get into my prayers, there is so many people that need prayers for something or another.

I am working on using my faith to help with weight loss, I have the tools but I don't seem to be able to stick with it.  God helped me quit smoking and drinking and my life changed for the better, why can't I use what I know to stick with watching what I put into my mouth.

Today starts a new month, it will be a tough month since it was just a year ago that my whole life turned upside down on me.  I can't dwell on the past I need to move ahead and count my blessings.

 1/28/08

Returning home from a vacation, I opened up my work email only to decover that one of my ladies had fallen down the stairs the day I left. Taken to the hospital by ambulance.  Many Dr. visits the nest few days.

While I was gone I didn't pray for the house and the ladies on a daily bases like I do when working.  I need to remember that I must find time to pray for more than what effects my life at that time. To remember those who are in my life not just when they are in front of me.

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This is something that I have never done before and it is kinda scary.  I just need to find someone who may have answers for stuff in my life.

I want to grow spiritually,study the Bible, read books about religion, but it seems that every time I sit down to do just that my husband is bugging me for something or other.  I can read books that don't deal with religion and I don't get bothered by him.  I hae been told by him not to puch my faith on him he will go at his own time.

What I would like in this new year is to be able to study God's word, grow in faith and strengthen my prayer life.  What a blessing to have found this sight and I think it will help me on my road to freedom.