Tuesday, August 30, 2011, 4:46 PM [General]

    Revelation 21:27
    "Nothing that is impure will enter the city."
    This verse always worried me. Would I have enough time to fix my life and be pure before God by then? Now I understand that by GOD'S grace and HIS righteousness, I am clean NOW. When I receive my new body, ALL of the old me that used to give in to sin will have been stripped away. I will stand before my Father and He will welcome me with open arms.

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    God Gifts Us All

    Monday, August 29, 2011, 10:59 PM [General]


    A beautiful story exclaiming the great power of God to use the least likely!  Be blessed.

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    Tuesday, August 23, 2011, 10:28 PM [General]

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    4 Points of Affirmation

    Tuesday, August 23, 2011, 10:08 PM [General]

    This is a letter I just sent a friend in response to her letter!

    4 Points of Affirmation
    1) Your last email had Phil. 4:13 in it. I was writing this verse in my recovery notebook before the meeting tonight. What was the mainscripture that the group leader used?? It started with Phil. 4:11-13, then went back to v. 8-9 (plaque on your wall), and finally went back to v. 4-7 (another of my favorites). 

    2) You just shared this from Isaiah

    but those who hope in the LORD 
    will renew their strength. 
    They will soar on wings like eagles; 
    they will run and not grow weary, 
    they will walk and not be faint.
    Isaiah 40

    This afternoon on radio, they shared Isaiah 40:28-31, and that was the other verse I was writing in my recovery notebook before the meeting tonight.

    3) The person that you had lunch with that is coming to the Bridge (my church) is part of the PAIS Project. One of their main speakers was at the Bridge about a month ago (actually, the first service I attended) and I was moved to donate to them and have received sermon messages from them to listen to.

    4) "The second one was no big deal--just on the way to school this morning--and it simply read: "Smile, GOD loves you."" (a quote from your letter)
    WRONG!!!! HUGE DEAL!!!
    In tonights meeting, someone shared that they were "not where they want to be, but where they NEEDED to be". I am not where I want to be, but I am where I need to be. It is OK to be where I am (NOT staying here - stagnation), as this is just a place on the road I am walking. The point is, I can have contentment with this place here and now in my journey, so I CAN LOVE ME here and now, even if I don't love the place I am in, Especially since GOD LOVES ME.

    There are no coincidences, just times that God speaks that we do not recognize the voice!

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    True Hope

    Monday, August 22, 2011, 6:23 AM [General]

    When false hope is stripped away, all that remains is the truth.  Jesus is the only truth that can always be trusted and His grace is always sufficient.


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    Cold Chill!

    Sunday, August 21, 2011, 12:55 PM [General]

         Wow! I just felt a horrible chill!  I was just searching a Christian dating site.  Not sure why since I am supposed to be taking a break from relationships while I deal with my demons.  My ex-gf and I are actually supposed to be on a 3 month break while I work through what broke us up and she recovers from the pain I caused her.

         ANYWAY, I guess I occassionally get to feeling sorry for myself and check a few sites, not that I would contact anyone.  Every time I look, I think "WHY?  I want my ex back!  Do what you have to do to get better and keep praying for the both of us."

         I was on the site where we first met, and saw that my profile had been viewed a few times.  I had long since changed the message on it to no longer looking and thanking God for finding her, and had even turned my profile off a couple of times.  I saw that she was one of the people that viewed my profile, and that hers was back on there too.  It was like a punch in the gut.  I do not blame her, as she deserves someone in her life who will love her and treat her as she deserves.  I just hoped it would be me.

         Maybe God is using this to force me to take my recovery more seriously.  I need to do the work to get better, and not to get her back.  I need to do it for ME, and because I want to be the man God is making me to be.  I will not let this be another excuse to give in and wallow in pain and addiction.  God, remind me that Your grace is sufficient in ALL things!

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    Feelings VS the Truth

    Thursday, August 18, 2011, 7:15 PM [General]

    Why do we allow ourselves to be held hostage by our feelings.  







    Lies, all of them lies!  Why do we listen to Satan's whispers when God is speaking loud and clear?

    What does God have to say about us?

    Forgiven! In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace.(Ephesians 1:7)

    Loved!  To all in Rome who are loved by God and called to be his holy people:   Grace and peace to you from God our Father and from the Lord Jesus Christ. (Romans 1:7)

    Blameless!   He will also keep you firm to the end, so that you will be blameless on the day of our Lord Jesus Christ.(1 Corinthians 1:7)

    Accepted!  Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God.(Romans 15:7)

    Never Alone!    Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said,   “Never will I leave you;  never will I forsake you.” (Hebrews 13:5)

    Powerful!    Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us. (Ephesians 3:20)

    Victorious!    But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. (1 Corinthians 15:57)


    We need to start listening to the one who truly loves us and NEVER lies.  When your struggles and failures are getting you down, focus on God's truth, not on how you feel!

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    Wednesday, August 17, 2011, 10:30 PM [General]

    SADLY, not 100% sober, but at least 100% pure and faithful/loyal (NO PORN)!!!  1 demon down and one demon to go!!  As GOD is my witness, I will become the man He is making me to be.



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    Tuesday, August 16, 2011, 11:32 AM [General]

      Vulnerability in not one of my favorite words.  It implies powerlessness to control or protect self.  It suggests weakness.  Vulnerability is ANYTHING but weak.  It actually requires great strength to make yourself vulnerable to another.

         To be vulnerable is to expose the weakness in yourself.  2 Corinthians 12:9 talks about how God's strength shines brightest in our weakness, because it is than that only God is glorified and not us.  To share our vulnerable moments with another, is to offer them trust and demand nothing in return.  It is to allow them to see just how much God loves you in spite of your flaws and failures.

         Here is where God's grace and power come in to play.  As you become vulnerable and trust (God - not the other person), you allow the Holy Spirirt to work through you to touch the other person.  They see God's love for you, and are touched deep within. They have a desire for that same love in themself, since being in relation with God is part of our purpose.  If they accept God's free gift of grace and salvation, then God's family grows and another beggar is sent out to let the other beggars know where to find bread.  If they do not accept, then you have at least planted a seed, a seed that maybe another is meant to water, and eventually harvest.


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    The Gospel - God's Great Ego Buster

    Sunday, August 14, 2011, 7:12 PM [General]

         What is it about the Gospel that SO repels the world? The world hates it, mocks it, trivializes is and wants you to think it is not even worth your very time contemplating.  Why the level of hostility?  I believe it is because the world prefers a person focused on self.
         The basic premise of the Gospel is that you can not be enough, so God is.  We are so screwed up, and God loves us so much, that God pays for what we can not.  Our sin debt is so great that we can not ever pay it off.  And yet God, our creator, loves us so much that He does not wish to be seperated from us.  And yet HIs sense of justice can not leave sin unpunished.  What can be done?
         He does the only thing that can be done.  He decides to become one of us.  He takes on Himself the punishment WE deserve.  The only thing we have to do is to trust in His sacrifice, and accept His gift to us.  So what is the problem?
         Our culture (and world view) has raised us to believe that we are ok!  We can fix our own problems if we try hard enough. All we have to do is pick ourselves up by our own boot straps and we will be ok!  WHAT A LOAD OF CRAP!!!!!
         On our best day, we are able to tread water well enough to handle just that one moment we live in.  Given enough time, we will start to slowly (at best) sink.  While we tread water, we can convince ourselves that WE can handle it all.   In truth, we are one second away from collapse.
         This is the basic truth that the Gospel shines glaringly in our faces.  And this is precisely  why we hate it!  Anything that reminds us that we are inadequate by our own abilities offends us.  How can we accept that we need help?
         I am reminded of the words of a song by the band Need to Breathe:
    Just how much air I will need to breathe
    When your tide rushes over me
    There's only one way to figure out
    Will you let me drown, will you let me drown?

         We are soooooo terrified at the idea of trusting that much!  If GOD lets us down, who can we ever trust??  If we are to EVER move forward in our lives (and faith), we have to take a blind leap and trust the one TRUE Father of our souls to do what He promised to do.
    "I will NEVER leave you or forsake you."  Hebrews 13:5
    "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."  Matthew 28:20

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