A FATHER'S BROKEN HEART
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     A friend recently told me that they felt more genuine love and concern from their non-Christian friends then from their Christian ones. Those words have haunted me. We are told by Jesus that the second greatest commandment is to love our neighbor as our self and that they (the world) will know we are Christians by our love.
     Why can't we learn to see others as God does? God loves us all. He doesn't condone all our actions, but still longs for us to know how much He loves us. 
Maybe is it because we can not let down our walls and be real with others. We are flawed just as our Christian and non-Christian friends are. Jesus told a parable called "The Two Debtors"
Luke 7:36-50
     When one of the Pharisees invited Jesus to have dinner with him, he went to the Pharisee’s house and reclined at the table. A woman in that town who lived a sinful life learned that Jesus was eating at the Pharisee’s house, so she came there with an alabaster jar of perfume. As she stood behind him at his feet weeping, she began to wet his feet with her tears. Then she wiped them with her hair, kissed them and poured perfume on them.
When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, ‘If this man were a prophet, he would know who is touching him and what kind of woman she is – that she is a sinner.’
     Jesus answered him, ‘Simon, I have something to tell you.’
     ‘Tell me, teacher,’ he said.
     ‘Two people owed money to a certain money-lender. One owed him five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. Neither of them had the money to pay him back, so he forgave the debts of both. Now which of them will love him more?’
     Simon replied, ‘I suppose the one who had the bigger debt forgiven.’
     ‘You have judged correctly,’ Jesus said.
     Then he turned towards the woman and said to Simon, ‘Do you see this woman? I came into your house. You did not give me any water for my feet, but she wet my feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair. You did not give me a kiss, but this woman, from the time I entered, has not stopped kissing my feet. You did not put oil on my head, but she has poured perfume on my feet. Therefore, I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven – as her great love has shown. But whoever has been forgiven little loves little.’
     Then Jesus said to her, ‘Your sins are forgiven.’
     The other guests began to say among themselves, ‘Who is this who even forgives sins?’
     Jesus said to the woman, ‘Your faith has saved you; go in peace.’
     Perhaps the lack of love for others (especially our brothers and sisters in Christ) is connected to a lack of love for Christ. This sounds offensive, but think. If we REALLY realize just how much God has forgiven us, how can we not be motivated to love God. And if we love God, we MUST obey His command to love others as He has loved us. It is how people will know we are His followers and be drawn to want to follow as well (John 13:34-35)
     I know that I have broken The Father heart with my lack of love at times. Join me in prayer that we will love as He loved us.

     Even as Christians, we struggle with the relationship of Free Will and God's ultimate control. Where does one begin and the other end. This question surfaced when a friend and I were discussing Romans 1:1. In this verse, Paul describes himself as a "servant of Christ." The Greek word is doulos, and means slave, one who is not free. The discussion was not if were were mere puppets of God, but just how free we were in choosing our actions. My reading on this verse, and Paul in general, led me to the following conclusions.
     Because of his nature, Paul had a tendency to live in the extreme. He knew that his old life was slavery to the law, and to his service to the law, he was zealous, even to the killing of Christians.
     Now, as a Christian, his zealous nature does not change, just the one he is in service to.
     I think that, as a Roman, Paul used this term for slave in a way he never would have to a Jew. John 8:34-35 shows how Jesus was not listened to when he spoke to the Jews of their slavery to sin. Identifying yourself as a slave to them would make no sense, and Paul always knew his audience. Some of the hearers of this epistle were probably former or currents slaves. To hear Paul identify with them certainly perked their ears. Yet as the Gospel it laid out to them, they see that the type of "slave" that Paul is and the "Master" he serves are a radical departure to their world view. THAT is part of the nature of the Gospel. It radically challenges our world view (love your enemy, pray for those who persecute you, forgive your brother 70 times 7 times).
     The Romans saw slavery as service compelled through force and fear. There may have been some exceptions to the rule, but I am sure that on the whole, there was little true love between slave and master.
     The slave seemed to have no will of his own and obeyed, but only out of fear of punishment. The slave still had free will, but disobedience of the master resulted in severe punishment. The master used fear to keep the slave in line.
     Paul is a slave to Christ, but not out of fear of damnation. He is a slave out of love for Christ because of how greatly he had been forgiven. Paul's reference to himself as a "chief among sinners" shows this.
     Because he understood that "he was not his own, but bought at a great price," he literally saw himself as a slave to Christ. And as his self was "crucified with Christ and he no longer lived but Christ lived through him," he saw his will and dead and no longer running the show.
     I guess Toby Mac was inspired by Paul when he wrote "Steal My Show". Same mentality. I am the slave and you are the Master, If you wanna steal my show, take it away. ;-)

Dan

Clarke's Commentary on the Bible
Paul, a servant of Jesus Christ - The word δουλος, which we translate servant, properly means a slave, one who is the entire property of his master; and is used here by the apostle with great propriety. He felt he was not his own, and that his life and powers belonged to his heavenly owner, and that he had no right to dispose of or employ them but in the strictest subservience to the will of his Lord. In this sense, and in this spirit, he is the willing slave of Jesus Christ; and this is, perhaps, the highest character which any soul of man can attain on this side eternity. "I am wholly the Lord's; and wholly devoted in the spirit of sacrificial obedience, to the constant, complete, and energetic performance of the Divine will." A friend of God is high; a son of God is higher; but the servant, or, in the above sense, the slave of God, is higher than all; - in a word, he is a person who feels he has no property in himself, and that God is all and in all.

Barnes' Notes on the Bible
A servant - This name was what the Lord Jesus himself directed His disciples to use, as their general appellation; Matthew 10:25; Matthew 20:27; Mark 10:44. And it was the customary name which they assumed; Galatians 1:10; Colossians 4:12; 2 Peter 1:1; Jude 1:1; Acts 4:29; Titus 1:1; James 1:1. The proper meaning of this word servant, δοῦλος doulos, is slave, one who is not free. It expresses the condition of one who has a master, or who is at the control of another. It is often, however, applied to courtiers, or the officers that serve under a king: because in an eastern monarchy the relation of an absolute king to his courtiers corresponded nearly to that of a master and a slave. Thus, the word is expressive of dignity and honor; and the servants of a king denote officers of a high rank and station. It is applied to the prophets as those who were honored by God, or especially entrusted by him with office; Deuteronomy 34:5; Joshua 1:2; Jeremiah 25:4. The name is also given to the Messiah, Isaiah 42:1, "Behold my servant in whom my soul delighteth," etc.; Isaiah 53:11, "shall my righteous servant justify many." The apostle uses it here evidently to denote his acknowledging Jesus Christ as his master; as indicating his dignity, as especially appointed by him to his great work; and as showing that in this Epistle he intended to assume no authority of his own, but simply to declare the will of his master, and theirs.

Vincent's Word Studies
A servant (δοῦλος)

Lit., bond-servant or slave. Paul applies the term to himself, Galatians 1:10; Philippians 1:1; Titus 1:1; and frequently to express the relation of believers to Christ. The word involves the ideas of belonging to a master, and of service as a slave. The former is emphasized in Paul's use of the term, since Christian service, in his view, has no element of servility, but is the expression of love and of free choice. From this stand-point the idea of service coheres with those of freedom and of sonship. Compare 1 Corinthians 7:22; Galatians 4:7; Ephesians 6:6; Philemon 1:16.

On the other hand, believers belong to Christ by purchase (1 Corinthians 6:20; 1 Peter 1:18; Ephesians 1:7), and own Him as absolute Master. It is a question whether the word contains any reference to official position. In favor of this it may be said that when employed in connection with the names of individuals, it is always applied to those who have some special work as teachers or ministers, and that most of such instances occur in the opening salutations of the apostolic letters. The meaning, in any case, must not be limited to the official sense.

      My current study book is called "A Workshop on David and His Psalms."  This weeks reading involves how Saul's jealousy turned to murderous rage.  In the story we are introduced to Doeg the Edomite.  He was a convert to Judaism and Chief Shepherd to Saul.  His story is found in 1 Samuel 21:1-9 and 22:6-23. 
     He was present when David fled to the priest Ahimelech, seeking provision.  Doeg later informs Saul of Ahimelech's actions.  Saul is enraged and after questioning to priest, has him and his family slaughtered.  When his own soldiers refuse, Saul calls on Doeg, who gladly complies.
     The study then draws parallels and contrasts between David and Doeg.  Both were in the Shepherd trade.   For David, it was a personal calling.  He cared for the well being of the sheep and took care of them himself.  He knew each one individually, and fought and killed bear and lion to protect them.
     This part of why David was referred to as a "man after God's own heart."  
God knows each one of us personally.  He made us each unique and personally "formed us in our mother's womb." (Psalm 139:13 & Jeremiah 1:5)  He loves us and cares for us.  Jesus refers to himself as the "Good Shepherd" who cares so deeply for us that he literally gave is life to our salvation.
     Doeg on the other hand, is "Chief of the Shepherds."  He was not himself a 
shepherd, but the overseer of the shepherds.  This may have even been a position he gained through connections, as opposed to being promoted because of his abilities.  Either way, he had no true connection to the sheep themselves.  He did not know them and they did not know him.  He is not a caretaker, but a manager; calculating and without compassion.  His only concern is advancing through political maneuvering.
     And now to the sad part of our story, and David's connection to Doeg.  When David to Ahimelech, he lied to him.  He deceived the priest by claiming that he was on a secret mission from the king.  He manipulated the priest into giving him the only food that was available, the bread that was consecrated to God.  Only the priests were allowed to eat this.  He also takes the sword of Goliath, the giant that he killed.  Ironic that that event both propelled him into Saul's favor and eventually his envy.  David was afraid for his life, and understandably so.  A mad king was trying to take his life.  His sin was in trusting his own cunning to keep alive instead of relying on God.  David's action would in part cost the priest his life.
     Doeg also acts with deception and half-truth.  Saul is raging about David's escape and wildly accusing everyone of conspiring with David.  At this point, Doeg steps forward and tells Saul about how Ahimelech helped David with provisions.  He neglects to mention David's deception, and that the priest believed he was aiding a mission of the king.  He even mentions the sword, perhaps planting a seed of David's threat to Saul and the priests's part in a plot.  
     Saul has the priest brought before him.  He does not seek truth from him, but only accuses him and David of treachery.  Ahimelech, not understanding the full nature of his situation, defends David as one who is loyal to Saul and above reproach.  More praise of David is more than Saul can bear, and orders Ahimilech and his family killed.  The sole surviving member of the family flees to David, and tells him of the events.  I believe that David was crushed in spirit.  He confessed that he had seen Doeg there with the priests, and knew that Doeg would tell Saul.  He admits that the blood in on his hands.
     David responds with Godly sorrow.  Godly Sorrow does not simply regret the 
consequences, but grieves us of our very actions in the first place.  He repents of his sin, and with a true shepherds heart, he takes the man under his protective care.
     Doeg doesn't even see his actions as sin.  Perhaps like Saul, he is so jealous of David that it was just a means to an end for him.  Or maybe he viewed it as justice to kill the man who helped David.  Either way, his blood lust did not stop with the priest and his family.  It so consumed Doeg that he killed all the priests there, eighty-five in all.  Even that was not enough.  At Saul's command, he put to the sword Nob, town of the priests.  Every living thing was killed; men, women, children, infants, and cattle.
     How great is the consequences of our sin when, in our pride, we cling to our sin and refuse to repent?  
     In the end, Doeg and David are nothing alike.  One allows his heart to grow cold and callous and the results were tragic.  The other allowed God to reveal sin and break his heart.  David would not go on to be the perfect king (only Jesus will do that).  He would fall again more than once.  His greatness as a leader would be his compassion for his people as their shepherd, and modeling a heart that was always broken before the Lord.  Psalm 52 is David's response to the events of this story, a recording of how God had shaped his heart.  In it, David speaks of how he came to trust in God's "unfailing love" and how he will put his hope in "God's name."
     That is God's desire yours and my life.  He wants us to trust in His unfailing love, a love we can never be good enough to earn.  Hope not in your own strength, but "in His name, find hope, for His name is good."

Steal My Show (TobyMac) www.godtube.com/watch/?v=0J91MJNU

"If You wanna steal my show, I'll sit back and watch You go
If You got somethin' to say, go on and take it away
Need You to steal my show, can't wait to watch You go
So take it away"

     The song is autobiographical, about touring and performing. What I like is how it can translate to all of our lives.
     As Christians, it is easy to get in the mode of going through life thinking "Oh, hi God. Nice to see You. This is what I am doing. If You wanna work in and through me and You have the time, I am okay with that."
     God longs, however, to bring us to the point of "Wow God, why didn"t I see You there? I really NEED you to 'steal the show'. Regardless of how I look on the outside or how well I think I am doing, I can't do this without you. In fact, I don't even wanna try. When I let you run things, they come out so much better, and You always surprise me with the amazing things that come out of it when I do surrender to You."
     What part of "The Show" are you still trying to run? Work? Family? Finances? Even if you are doing a fair job, He will do so much more than you can imagine if you let Him.
     I love how The Message says it in Ephesians 3:20-21
"God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, his Spirit deeply and gently within us.

Glory to God in the church!
Glory to God in the Messiah, in Jesus!
Glory down all the generations!
Glory through all millennia! Oh, yes!"

     God places/allows difficulties in our live for various reasons. For me right now, they seem to be to discipline and funnel (draw) me back to Him. I need to return though, without just an attitude of avoiding further correction. I need to have an attitude of gratitude and joy for all He has blessed me with.

     Let us all begin this new year with a deeper sense of gratitude for all we have, especially the non-material things.

“Are you not thirsty?" said the Lion.

"I am dying of thirst," said Jill.

"Then drink," said the Lion.

"May I — could I — would you mind going away while I do?" said Jill.

The Lion answered this only by a look and a very low growl. And as Jill gazed at its motionless bulk, she realized that she might as well have asked the whole mountain to move aside for her convenience.

The delicious rippling noise of the stream was driving her nearly frantic.

"Will you promise not to — do anything to me, if I do come?" said Jill.

"I make no promise," said the Lion.

Jill was so thirsty now that, without noticing it, she had come a step nearer.

"Do you eat girls?" she said.

"I have swallowed up girls and boys, women and men, kings and emperors, cities and realms," said the Lion. It didn't say this as if it were boasting, nor as if it were sorry, nor as if it were angry. It just said it.

"I daren't come and drink," said Jill.

"Then you will die of thirst," said the Lion.

"Oh dear!" said Jill, coming another step nearer. "I suppose I must go and look for another stream then."

"There is no other stream," said the Lion.”

― C.S. Lewis, The Silver Chair

     All of us are thirsty at times.  Our bodies need water to survive.  Our spirits also thirst, thirst for purpose and meaning.  We look to many things to quench that thirst. 

     The book of Ecclesiastes is all about how the wisest man that ever lived and how he tried everything (and I do mean EVERYTHING) to quench that thirst.  Power, money, pleasure, sex and wine; You name it, he tried it.  In the end, he found that purpose in this "Fear GodP)"> and keep his commandments, for this is the duty of all mankind."

 God knows that we are thirsty. He asks that we come to Him to drink. He makes no promises as to what He will do in and through us, except that we can fully trust Him.

 Will you trust Him? Or will you allow the thirst to drive you to places that will seem to satisfy, but in the end will simply leave you empty and wanting more?

     I balk and complain that God asks me to love with no guarentee of return. It 
isn't fair. God is all knowing, so for Him their is no real risk. 
     How can he understand my fear, how much I have to lose? If I love, I give away a piece of myself, the true "me". I have no way of knowing if they will give back 
a piece of the true "them". 
     As if that isn't hard enough, I let them have an opportunity to reject me. To lose a piece of me AND have it rejected, how can He ask that? He can't understand what He asks. 
     Then I remember what He did. Not only did He give me a piece of Himself to live 
inside me, He made that offer to everyone. As I let that sink in, I realize that He chose to love and offer that piece of Himself NOT just to those He knew would accept Him. That would have been safe, not very risky. No, He gave it to those that He knew would despise and reject His gift. I have no fore knowledge of if my gift of me will be rejected. For me, their can always be a chance. How dare I decide to love less than He does? 

23Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror 24and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. 25But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it—he will be blessed in what he does.

**  DISCLAIMER!!  I am a bit under the weather right now, so hopefully, I do not ramble!  **

Two different men, two very diferent outcomes!  When I look into the mirror, what do I see?  Do I see a child of God, "God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." (Eph. 2:10)?  Or do I see the me I want to be, doing what I want to do?  Oh, I may do a good job of studying and memorizing verses to quote back like a parrot, but am I allowing God's word to soak into my innermost being and change me?  Or am I only "hearing and not doing" (James 1:22)?  None of us intentionally sets out to deceive ourselves, but that is the outcome if we do not put in the work of pursuing what Christ created us for.  We are not here to look good.  Jesus refered to some Pharisees as "white-washed tombstones".  We do not exist merely to enjoy ourselves.  Read Ecclesiastes, written by the wisest man who ever lived.  He ended with the observation that ALL our pursuits are just a "chasing after the wind".  "Remember your creator!" he tells us.  Or as Kansas sang, "All we are is dust un the wind."

What do I want to see when I look in the mirror?  I want to see God's "perfect law that gives freedom (James 1: 25)!  I eagerly desire to continue to look at it, let it transform me and work its way through me till I am free -  free from the chains that held me bound to a life incapable of pleasing God.  I want the blessing that comes from obeying and finally hearing the words "well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in a few things. I will put you in charge of many things. Enter into the joy of your master." (Matthew 25:21)