|2 years ago :: May 16, 2011 - 3:18PM #11|
Beliefnet has long suggested I become either a Jew or a Quaker, LOL.
Last December, I made the decision to become a Jew. This was after joining the Episcopal church, getting baptized--the whole nine yards (I grew up Baptist, so I am no stranger to Christianity). And yet I didn't feel anything. I got baptized and didn't feel any different. I started taking communion and felt nothing stirring in my soul. But I felt that I should feel something. I kept feeling this vague, nagging feeling that I should be doing something I wasn't doing; something was slightly off. (Not to mention I had trouble believing in almost everything in the Nicene Creed.)
And then I started researching Judaism for a book I'm writing. This is not the first time I've studied Judaism--it's the third time, actually--but I ended up listening to a lecture by a rabbi that was my altar call. I wanted to do Jewish things, even though I wasn't Jewish. So I decided to go to synagogue. I was lost most of the time, but when the Rabbi brought the Torah around, I reached out and touched it, then kissed my hand. And to think, on Good Friday a few months before, I had not been able to bring myself to kneel and kiss the cross.
I am currently in the process of converting to Judaism. I feel uplifted when I study Judaism, I enjoy service and Torah study every week, and I am very excited about my conversion. The nagging feeling that something's not quite right is gone.
If you're curious about Judaism, there are free lectures by many different rabbis on this website: www.simpletoremember.com/media/