Jan 25, 2011 -- 11:27AM, belleo wrote:

So my question is... Will god forgive me for hating him right now? I cry everyday wanting to know why, what next, what can I do? I hear nothing but silence. And I scream again.

God understands you . God's love is always wit you

It is all that is good that comes down from your Father in heaven . God is love . He is not a monster . You do remind me of me when I lived in pain and it seemed a dead end . Then I started to pray and my life changed .

I don't think God is putting His fingers in His ears and going "lalalalala -- I can't hear you".  I think He's calmly letting you get your feelings off your chest.  I believe God understands the whole "human emotion" thing.  Even after Cain's murder, God was like, "Dude, really?"  He didn't vaporize the kid with anger management issues.  You're upset.  You need to vent.  God is letting you.  My God isn't cruel, even in the face of criticism.

Sep 4, 2010 -- 2:37AM, birwin4 wrote:

I agree with BD.

If you read the book of Job in the OT, you will find that this man Job really got stuck into God.

He blamed him for the way he was treated (he lost all his children and all his belongings). He called God a madman and said he sympathised with Him because only madmen make it. He called him a hunter who loved to stalk his prey until he exhausted them and then killed them. He had a number of other things to say about God which in any one's book were anything but complementary.

The interesting thing is that at the end of the book God says that Job did not sin even with his mouth. My take on this is that God prefers honest feelings rather than trying to have God on by hiding your feelings.

Tell God how you feel and ask him to help you see the bigger picture.

I think the Hebrew Scriptures are really brimming with examples of godly men and women who were really, really authentic and honest about bringing the fullness of their emotions, both positive and negative, before the LORD: Cain, Abraham, Jacob, Moses, David, the psalmists, Job, Ecclesiastes, and many, many others. (And really, Jesus in Gethsemane and on the Cross falls into this mode, too: eli, eli, lema sabachthani.) And God really does seem to encourage this. "Come, let us argue it out," God says.