oh dear    last post 3 yrs ago

I am new. Born April 25th. My whole life has been hard. I believe someone mentioned earlier and hit it on the head when they said it may be harder for us because we, Taureans, go for that comfort and stability at no costs. And being so loyal takes its toll on a person....especially if they are being loyal to human beings. At 29 years old, I feel like I am 92. I tend to draw needy and broken souls....which i tend to until they grow strong enough to humiliate me and move on with their "stronger", more efficient selves. I had throat operation when i was 2 years ago. I believe I have an undiagnosed hearing deficiency that I will tackle when I am capable to stomach anymore responsibility. I have decided to transform the negative energies into positive power in order to make a difference on this earth. Who is with me?

thanks for letting me rant.

I've only met one Taurus that matches the descriptions on the Internet community. I've never really believed in signs until now. I've always found myself confortable with Libras (I am a Leo) but because they seem like they don't have a care in the world I always seem to tip the balance more than they can endure. Although my friends all are Libras and Leos, only one person managed to make me sit and relax like the peace and serenity was flowing inside me. I have a friend who has been studying in France for 6 years (although I don't know where he gets the money from, maybe scolarships?) and I've felt like I was hitting a rock and I only hurt me. We know each other for ten years but we've only talked a lot 3 years ago. He never talked about his feelings for me but he was so strong, so sensual and calm in the same time.

I am very stubborn and sometimes too rushed. But he managed to give me his patience and serenity. As time passed I realized no one was like he was. Then I realized what I missed. 2 years ago he said he cared for me just that he was independent and it is understandable because he lived alon for 6 years in France. Last year he called me to meet (when he was back in his home town where I used to live) but I refused to see him just because I had a boyfriend and I was very confused . Why did he put such a hard print on me? At first I didn't really like him but as he was showing more and more of his personality I was slowly and unknownly falling in love with him and I can't seem to forget him the more guys I meet. When I think...oh...this is the person for me I get disappointed and I remember his strong hugs and soft kisses. When I realized he was a Taurus then I opened my eyes to everything he did (and Taurus are doers not talkers) and realized that he was really itnerested in me...but oh no he doesn't believe in love...because love is a passing thing, it transforms into rutine. I think he is afraid of being stuck , controled or of getting bored of thesame person. That's why he doesn't even have a girlfriend. I think he will have a hard time finding the perfect person for him.

A month ago he told me to come and visit him in France. Now that's possible since now I have a job and can pay for a plane ticket. But what about us? I thought as time passes I would not feel anything but 2 years ago after he told me he cares for me I got really confused and even got into fights with my ex-boyfriend. I think my subconcious was calling to me.

I've been through so many things and I believe love is not everything. Yes I might love him (I am not sure about this but since I can't forget him for almost 3 years it might be love...or loyalty) but I must consider him and I  must consider my future also. He might not like to get into a relationship just like that.

After reading so many things about Taurus I realized how much he resembles a pure Taurus. I mean how many men tell someone that they care for them after one year of not even seeing that person. And he could get any girl he wanted...but he was always loyal . As long as I was around he was not looking at any other girls and because we weren't going out for real I didn;t have any expectations from him. It's funny cause it also says that if you want to get the heart of a Taurus you'll have a long way untill you reach that phase.

The thing I really love about him is that he is so kind and warm. On the outside he is like a hard rock, nothing can move or touch him. He is cold and sometimes ignorant.(or so it seems for those who don;t know him). He can read people like an opened book. On the inside he is warm, patient and caring. He likes to give advices and he has a lot of empathy.

I;ve noticed some small things . Like when we were chatting with our friends one guy was staring at me. I felt he was a little agravated by it and I think he noticed my embarassement when that guy started saying strange things to me like how I was sipping from my juice. His sister had something to eat and she was on my opposite left side at the table. My Taurus friend kept taking food from her but he was leaning on me whilst he was taking food from his sister (hungry taurus haha). Then I noticed the guy slowly loosing his confidence. I don't know how this happened but I think that he wasn't really jealous but rather he tried to get him away from me and I was really thankful for that.

He also liked to turn a lock of my hair between his fingers. He said he did this to his sister when he was little and she had to cut her hair. This is the only thing that assures me that he really likes me. Not to mention that he gave me a lot of advices concerning my exes (and here I went wrong) ...he was like a father, a brother and a lover to me. Now, wouldn't you fall in love with him? The last time I saw him was 2 years ago and I miss him so much , he is in my thought, heart and veins all the time. That's only because he saved me from a lot of sorrow and sadness , he helped me gain my self confidence back and hope for a new future.

And this is how a Taurus man is really like. You might not notice because they don;t show much of their real self, but it seems I was the lucky one. He once said to me "Why are you looking at me with those eyes full of love?". At first I thought he was bothered by it but now I think he just noticed my sincere feelings which is quite rare from a guy and he cherished them. And I was so wrong for not realizing what I had all this time. Or I needed to grow up, experience all this bad things that happened to me to finally realize...I want to be next to him.

Michiru48, That sounds like deep seated love....in all aspects of the word, love. I have one person I feel that way about now. 32years of age feel so much more different than 29.