Today i wrote three very long pieces about  examining my feelings for someone I am totally enamored of, I am really very "In Love" with this person, however I feel fairly assured that it is not mutual, so i wanted to take a good honest look at what i was feeling and how much of it was coming from self-concern and whether I even thought i'd be someone who would make her happy (if she were. . .) but it is too late and I am too tired to do all the typing, & I have a chance to get to bed at a reasonable hour tonight and I am taking it!! so I will post those pieces tomorrow night! Also I want to preface these pieces by reasserting I am very In Love with her but since it is not mutual and for the sake of self-honesty I am trying to adjust my perspective on the whole thing to a more well-wishing and taking the focus off of unrequited love angst!!!