|2 years ago :: Feb 17, 2011 - 5:20PM #41|
Sometimes I seem to be able to relax
and be myself
and at other times I feel shy
a bit tongue tied
the only answer I have come up with
I am so in love with you
that my feelings interfere
with my ability
to think straight.
|2 years ago :: Feb 17, 2011 - 9:11PM #42|
Just a refresher of my previous assertions this thread is about my feelings not what I think i can have. Sadly the woman i am in Love with I am pretty sure doesn't feel that way about me, she's just a really nice woman who has been very kind to me and is a friend . . . which friendship i am very grateful for and appreciative of.
|2 years ago :: Feb 18, 2011 - 9:52PM #43|
how is it possible
that you just made me want you even more?!
It's just like the loving you more and more
it seems like I'm already stretching the fabric
of these feelings to their maximum,
they surge ahead to new levels!
My heart is like a rubber balloon filling up with love for you,
alive with sensation.
It's like electricity,
you are the voltage,
the positive potential,
attracting every electron in me
they all jump in protest of
being held away from you.
|2 years ago :: Feb 18, 2011 - 10:03PM #44|
A wise woman told me that I worry too much. . . but,
surely I don't want to tax your patience?!
Because i love you,
I get shy tongue tied and sometimes my mind just goes blank
when I am near you,
because my feelings
march right in and overthrow my mind!
On the other hand,
do you have any idea
how devilishly hard it is
to excuse myself and walk away from you when you are right there
in conflict with my feelings
which gravitate toward you??!!
I'll give you a hint,
like moving a mountain!
So here is a prayer:
loosen my lips,
to be more freely me
because i want this woman to know
the real natural me
not the overcome by feelings,
and grant me the wisdom to know when it's time to go.
|2 years ago :: Feb 18, 2011 - 10:35PM #45|
I savor every moment
that you spend with me.
I don't think I have ever been
this in love before in my life,
oh, I've been in love
but never quite like this
there is something different about this time,
something I can't quite find the words to express.
|2 years ago :: Feb 18, 2011 - 10:45PM #46|
I've never been the jealous type
but when I saw you there on the bench talking with
him, with them
I felt a pang of jealousy
and I guess, truth be told,
I have every time,
with all of them.
I am not insanely jealous
and if you were mine
I would certainly not
wish to cut you off from other people
actually if you were mine
I probably wouldn't feel jealous
if i knew you loved me,
I guess because of the way I am
I fell for you instantly that first day
when you arrived
and in that moment
every other woman
in the world
fell off the radar.
|2 years ago :: Feb 18, 2011 - 10:53PM #47|
A confidant asked me today
if all you'd ever be willing to be is my friend
how would I feel about that
and I told her
that you matter to me so very much
that I want whatever kind of relationship I can have with you,
and that at the moment I am trying to
be grateful for this current friendship
and appreciate every little bit of time
I get to spend with you.
|2 years ago :: Feb 19, 2011 - 7:42PM #48|
I want moore
the woman of my dreams
the woman I love
the woman I adore!!
|2 years ago :: Feb 19, 2011 - 9:35PM #49|
You were in my dreams last night
there were flowers in water
and goats and chickens
and horses and deer
bird flying in a circle
around you and me.
|2 years ago :: Feb 20, 2011 - 1:15AM #50|
each one delightful... ahh sweet love !
"It took me a long time not to judge myself
through someone else's eyes" ~Sally Field