|2 years ago :: Feb 21, 2011 - 9:06PM #51|
I love her
She is my heart's desire
she set's me on fire
with love's flame
since she came into my world I have not been the same.
I love every little nuance I learn
brighter in my heart the flame of love does burn.
|2 years ago :: Feb 22, 2011 - 7:24PM #52|
On the way home from the dog park
I found myself wondering if some of the things I said
in our conversation this afternoon
might not have made such a great impression,
this would be the point where I would start to worry,
but I didn't
I said to myself
I want to be loved or liked for who I am
so it could never be a mistake to be myself or be honest
because if something about me causes her or anyone to judge against me
it would sooner or later.
|2 years ago :: Feb 22, 2011 - 8:59PM #53|
A little jealous?
yes I am
but I guess the truth
is the truth
I may be no more special
to you than them
perhaps, this is what
makes my heart ache
a bit when I see
you sitting and talking with them.
|2 years ago :: Feb 23, 2011 - 9:59PM #54|
What does love look like for me?
You are the one I adore
You are the one my love is for.
You may not want it but it belongs to you,. . .
I wish I did too!!!
and in a way I do,
you are the only one who can have me.
|2 years ago :: Feb 27, 2011 - 1:27PM #55|
I guess I have to go on living,
too many people are counting on me
especially my child
Loving you has been a hard one
because I'm not sure how much or if I even matter that much to you
and I'm not sure you're the kind of person who would continue
to care, if you did,
if I am not good at containing my emotions when I am miserable!
and i'm not.
so maybe you saw or heard me not handling this well on Friday,
Friday I was living in hell,
because I was afraid you didn't like me anymore,
and if you saw or heard you probably don't ,
so I'm in a really bad position now,
I have to go on living but I'm going to want to die
if I see a look in your eyes that says
I don't want to be talking to you,
I can't afford to quit my job,
but it's going to be a terrible struggle not to cry and to stay away from you,
about you and how I feel about you
it's not about anything else.
but I'm caught between a rock and a hard place,
I would never be rude to you but I'm going to do my best
to not come looking for you,
because I don't want to run away from work crying off to kill myself
not fair to the people who are counting on me.
|2 years ago :: Feb 27, 2011 - 5:45PM #56|
At least I will always be able to see your beautiful smiling face
in the video and pictures of you at halloween
that you shared with me.
I have been more in love with you than is good for me
because if thinking you might not like me as a friend anymore
is enough to make me want to die
that is not good.
|2 years ago :: Feb 27, 2011 - 6:03PM #57|
I am dreaming
and in my dream
I am a goat
a goat you talk to sweetly
a goat that get's
the treasure i wish for. . .
kisses from you.
|2 years ago :: Feb 28, 2011 - 8:42PM #58|
When love makes a fool of me;
a fool who doesn't know which end is up,
like a pup,
which is about every day,
what can I do
what can I say
love rules my heart
love has it's way.
|2 years ago :: Feb 28, 2011 - 8:46PM #59|
I always crave your company,
but as working life would have it,
some days are a feast
and some days I am savoring the crumbs.
I have a job to do,
and so do you,
but I so love the times
when fortune smiles on me
with more of you!
|2 years ago :: Feb 28, 2011 - 8:53PM #60|
Even when my mind is not dreaming of an intimate encounter,
just being near you
is enough to have
and ever so clearly
assaulting my consciousness
with a plaintive plea. . .