aw damn

I have to miss seeing her tomorrow

the plans of where to put the kid fell through

and she cried about going to the grandparents

because my mother threatened to take her to get a hair cut

something she has done before against the kid's and my wishes.

So I'm calling in sick and staying home with my daughter

but I will miss seeing that beautiful face that I adore.

Here is an example of how I love her

she asked if I went by a post office on my way,

I said yes. . .

I don't usually

I went over a different bridge to take her 

piece of mail to the post office downtown

went there first

didn't even occur to me to look at the return address

until after I had mailed it

but you know what

even if I had

I wouldn't have written it down or anything

I don't want to have her address

unless she's giving it to me because she wants me to have it

and I sure wouldn't go and see where it was 

if I had've thought to look

no stalkerish behavior from me!!

oh hell no! so I still have no idea where she lives except 

the town which she has said.

Not that I would think anything like that about her

if she came to check out where I live

God knows I've given her my address enough timesto make sure she has it!!!

If i knew where she lived and went to see

I think 

that would just make my heart ache even more

knowing I don't have an invitation.

So, she was right to trust me

I didn't even use running that errand for her in any selfish way at all.

I swear

no one but her 

I love no other

no other turns me on

not even close my heart will just lay down and expire when she is gone

but in the mean time 

I had an intimate fantasy thought come to me today

and that is all it takes 

to think of us touching of her lips touching mine

and I am starving for something i can't have & cant get my mind off of it

I had to swing by mels

to post a poem on the erotic board.

Others may want her

but nobody could want her as much as me,

I want her with everything I've got!!!

I've been in love with this woman for almost a year now

and every time I think I couldn't possibly be more in love with anyone

I fall more and deeper in love with her

wish she loved me too

but I am totally grateful for her friendship!!

Oh what a hopeless fool in love I am,

on the night of Black Friday

I happened to be looking at jewlery

and one thing led to another I waslooking at rings

I like plain rings, plan bands in fact and if they have anything else about them

it would be a stone set down in the ring I don't like settings up off of the ring,

too girly for me and if it were a prescious stone

I'd probably break it off of the ring the first day

I'm hard on things,

but anyway, girly rings are not my style.

also it might have carving on a band those two things

inset stones and design carving

(for example at one point I was looking at bands with a celtic pattern around the band)

anyway I came across some 6 MM titanium (smooth) wedding bands

marked down from $120 a piece to $9.99 a piece 

So even though, she'd never marry me,

and I wouldn't ask (unless some miracle happened and she fell in Love with me)

I bought two of them I guess i'll just wear them both

and be married to myself

one is a size 8 and one a seven 

cause i couldn't  remember it the size 8 hematite rings I had bought in the recent past

were for my middle fingers or my ring fingers.

The rings came today the 8 will actualy fit either my middle finger or my ring finger just a tad

loose not like if I starighten my finger it would fall off

and the 7 fits my ring finger perfectly.

So, as I said I guess I'll just use them both 

but I wish I could marry that woman,

with all my heart.

 Correction! the 8 fits my ring finger perfect ands the seven is a bit snug it goes on and off but i had to put a little lotion to lubricate to get it off