My name is Travis and I am extremaly lost right now. I started going to church when I was 8 years old, Baptized as a christian when I was 12 and on and off with church untill I was 18. When I was 18 I started attending church regularly every sunday and wednesday for youth group. I remember one night at youth camp while I was praying I felt something just completly take over my whole being. I knew it must have been the holy spirit. For the next few weeks after that something inside me was changed, I could not explain it. It got to the point where I was feeling things before they happened, a sense of premonition if you will. It was constantly happening everday for all types of scenarios. It got to the point that I was actually getting scarred, and scarring my friends and family. So rather than embrace this new feeling I fleed, I stopped going to church, I stopped praying, I stopped reading the bible and over time I just became empty feeling. At the age of 25 I had a serious injury at my job that left me with 5 ruptured discs from L1-L5/S1, sciatica in both my legs and chronic pain from my central back down to my toes. I have been dealing with this pain for four years now to no available relief. I take three types of pain meds to control the pain and have had 5 series of injections only to get no relief. I find myself constantly praying to God all the time to heal me and I just don't ever feel anything ever anymore. My life seems numb, void, and black. I find that everytime I pray I end up just going back to my life as soon as I am done, because it's got to the point I just don't feel anything anymore. Is God angry I turned away? Why don't I ever feel his presense when I ask him back into my life? Why does the guilt of my sins still weigh me down even after I repent?.. Please pray for me that through some miracle I can be healed and renew my relationship with god so I can feel again.  Thank You and God Bless You all that pray for me......P.S. I am sorry it is so long

Lately I've been a doubter but I will pray for you regardless.  And you can pray for me as well if you wish.