I am a 25 year old single mother of a beautiful little girl.  Her father and I recently broke up (we were not married) after 3 years.  This is probably the hardest thing I have ever gone through because I have just longed for us to be a family, but I feel like he is at a different place when it comes to God, intimacy and family.  He is an awesome dad but a horrible partner.  I was a stay at home mom and recently started working but because the job market is so bad, I am working a temp job.  I am blessed to have that, but when that is up in three months, I don't know what I am going to do.  I feel like God is calling me to be closer to Him.  Like I have pushed Him to the side for so long for a man, and now it is my time to become that Christian woman I have always longed to be.  I don't want to straddle the fence anymore.  As a part of my spiritual journey, I am also taking a vowel of celiacy.  To help me with that, I try to change the type of music I listen too. Nothing sexual or anything that will make me fantasize or long for that feeling....I am very excited about my spiritual journey and not dating until I have come closer to God.  I feel like I need to find myself in God before I have another intimate relationship because God will then provide me with the partner He thinks is right for me.  I just feel like I will have a much better life.  I know this journey will not be easy as everyone around me presents me with temptations everyday.  I don't want to curse anymore but everyone, even my little brother curses.  But I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me....and I will.  This is a big change for me...I want to change everything...How I eat, what I drink....I want to treat my body like a temple.  All support is welcome or if you are going through the same spiritual journey.  Thank you.