In October I married my boyfriend of almost 3 yrs,however he was cheating on me for 8mos prior(w his ex wife,also his baby's mom).I married him because I love him w all my heart and I honestly thought I could get over it,here it is what 8mos later and i still hang on to everything his ex told me (in detail)as to what happened,I feel tormented every day thinking of this and every little thing he does makes me think he is cheating or lying or just up to something and i am soooo unhappy,i cant even tell you how much.I pray everyday that god will free me of this.My mind is consumed w/the thoughts of what he did or what he could be doing(he is also a truck driver so that don't help either).He has done more than this to me,during our date yrs he left me several times always for someone else.
I dont know what to do,i dont want to divorce i do love him w all my heart,but at the same time I am filled w/sooo much anger towards him....im not sure if i can ever get over this,i should have allowed myself time to think about it.I really only knew maybe a week before we got married.i just don't know what to do or how to get over this.

Can you seek marital counseling for yourself? And later on, with hubby? 

You have issues to sort through, such as finding a way to cope with your feelings concerning hubby’s past actions, and whether you should even remain in this marriage.  Takes lots more than love to keep a marriage together.  You’ve been wounded and the one who caused the pain may not be aware of the extent of the damage.  And, is he one who has changed his cheatin’ ways, or does he plan future extra-marital flings? (You haven’t said whether he has acknowledged his wrongdoing and taken steps to prove he has changed his ways).  After all, you were okay with his past cheating, so he may well assume you are fine with anything he does down the line.

You might also benefit from getting hubby to understand how his past actions affected you, both then and now.  Perhaps you could let go of some of the anger if he would fully acknowledge the hurt you feel. However, simply telling him your feelings/thoughts might not be the most productive way to accomplish this.  This might best be an issue worked on with professional counseling, as such feelings can destroy a marriage; however it takes both spouses working together to get past such things. 

Irene.

He and his ex are chaos-junkies that thrive on drama, and they have pulled you into their little soap opera.  Turn off the television and take a walk in the fresh air.  You may love him with all your heart, but it seems that you have left precious little room in your heart to love yourself.  Instead of trying so hard to change him, (which you cannot do anyway, only he can do that) focus on developing yourself, this is something you absolutely have full control over.  If he is the right man for you he will support you in your personal growth and maybe even grow some himself.