Barb,All my prayers go out to you and your sister Laurie...My sister,Doreen,is right there too...Im in Prescott Az. and she's in Daytona fl. I went to see her two months ago and planned another trip in Oct but I dont know if she'll be around by then. I wanna pick up the phone and call her everyday but I cant..nothing but tears come out and I break down before I do. I dont want to mke her sad so I just suck it all in and try to bear it myself.Im 51 and she turns 50 sept 26th. Shes always been there for me and I need her now. I feel so useless that I cant be there or do anything for her...I know she's going to a better place....I just wish it was me so much and not her. I pray our sisters find peace and beauty in heaven.....My moms dying too and my younger sis is there dealing with all of it so I cant tell her how bad Im handling it cause she needs me too...I found this site and its nice cause I have no one to talk to and guess im reaching out...Sorry..Just want U to know..my heart feels for U....God Bless..:( ..Skip