What's funny is those out of body experiences.

Okay, not literally-but I mean those moments where you catch yourself doing something... like searching the floor for your drugs, perhaps accidentally breaking things in the process.  And in these moments, some of us, may have a pause mid-thought and consider "wow, this is pathetic", or something like that...

You'd think those experiences would do the trick, yet they don't.   Instead it does seem to be an unrelated [to the substance] issue that usually breaks the camel's back.

I was on zanax for over two yrs. my organs were shutting down I was wore tired and ready to die. I decided enough was enough and I was ready and willing to surrender.

I wanted something new I just was not sure what that was at the time.

That was 3 yrs ago.

Today I am heathy and happy. I realized what I wanted was a new life and yes I go it.