I am so pissed at this site right now. I went to send a friend who understands me and my situation a private message, because I am in somewhat of a crisis right now. After it was all typed up, I clicked send message. Then it goes like a refresh move, comes up with the title still there, and says "did you remember to include a message?" AGGHHHH!!!!! This is not the first time this has happened to me on b'net with the private messages.

I am at the end of my rope. I am hanging on by almost less than a thread. I have been trying and waiting since March for help from a pain doctor. Today I was informed that the doctor that I had an appointment set to see about a month ago had to cancel my appointment. It's not the doctor's fault...I am not placing blame. He had to have emergency knee surgery. I just don't know why this stuff keeps happening. I would have to wait for time for him to heal from his surgery to see him. Mentally I'm almost broken from all of this. I feel that this is a safe place to put this....very few people come to this forum these days. I have to get it out, but even getting it out at this point is not much help. I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to be doing, because aparently, I'm doing something wrong. If I'm bald the next time you see me, it's because I have pulled all of my hair out. At least it won't be a broken hand from punching the wall. Damn it!!!!!!!!

Mille...thank you for the post and info. I had hoped that once Mercury retrograde was over on the 30th things would get better. I don't really know anything about astrology, but I did recognize some of it's effects once it had been explained here on other posts. I have had 2 very kind people here that did readings for me, and both of them talked to me about the negative energy. I try to take a step foreward, then get knocked back. I know that everything happens for a reason. I am going to give myself a break for the weekend, then try again on Monday to sort this mess with the doctors out.

Thank you for the well wishes and kindness.

Sending good thoughts your way.

dreamweever

dpatel....thank you. I'm still getting my emotions in order to be able to continue on my search for substantial help for the pain. But...I'm not giving up. Thank you again for your kind words and prayers.

Blessings to you,

Sue

Jul 25, 2009 -- 10:31AM, Bigdog6998 wrote:

ive been dealing with chronic pain for years and i feel hopless is there any one who can help me with prayers.

I'll include you in my prayers Bigdog. I can relate so much to what you have said. I just went through a failed procedure to address my pain. I'm trying to hang on until I can get in to see my family doctor to see if he thinks a neurologist might be able to help me. I don't want anymore pain management doctors hands on me again. I also plan to let him know not to send anymore of his patients to this guy for other reasons as well. I spent the day trying to locate the pain meds he prescribed, calling about 10 pharmacies before I could locate it. This is breaking the contract this clown made me sign stating I would only use the one and only pharmacy that I provided him information on....since they don't have what he ordered either. It's always nice to know that the doctors assume every patient they see is an addict. I'd like for him to just cram his prescription where the sun doesn't shine, since I asked him to prescribe something else and non opiate the day of the procedure. Sorry about the vent. I hope you get some relief real soon.