|5 years ago :: Apr 02, 2009 - 5:35PM #1|
Why is it when I'm sober
Everything hurts me inside
I reach out to god for freedom
Freedom from the screams in my mind
I let god in
I try not to sin
I always try to be kind
They tell me to do this for me
Look deep in myself to find me
If I am happy with me
I will find what I need
To get myself free from my mind
I am doing all this for me
I am not trying to hide inside me
God gives me repreves
And I am happy with me
But I can't seem to let myself fly
No one lets me in
Or tells me of my sins
Those sins that I dont realize
I see them everyday
I always stop & say hey
They let me walk on
Like I'm doing it wrong
But I look deep inside & don't see
I try to find help to see
Except no one is talkig with me
So I sit here alone in a crowd
I just want to sit here & cry
When I cry it helps me inside
Gets me free from the screems in my mind
I am peaceful again
I am letting god in
I am doing the best that I can
What is it that I have to be
So peaple start talking with me
And I might loose that hurt inside
|5 years ago :: Apr 02, 2009 - 9:49PM #2|
Sometimes it is lonelier when there are a lot of people around than when we are by ourselves, since at least then no one is ignoring us. Being comfortable in our own mind or skin is tricky for most people....and you will find on any of these forums that when you post here, people will post back. I stopped feeling so isolated when I found people to talk to who understood what I was going physically.
I just wanted you to know that someone heard you.
"You are letting your opinion be colored by facts again."
'When I want your opinion, I'll give it to you."
these are both from my father.
|5 years ago :: Apr 02, 2009 - 10:01PM #3|
The eternal question how to get away from yourself
"Wherever you go there you are"
The answer is paradoxical as all great truths are
Get drunk, stoned, eat, have sex, blah blah blah bla bla
Yet in the end we are all failures
In the words of Shakespeare " A tale told by an idiot signifying nothing"
Oh yeah the answer !! Be a great failure
Once you truly accept that all structures are unstable including your mind (ego) you transcend it and find that "you (true essence)" are the answer
"you are the truth the way and the life"
Spiritual awakening is awakening from the dream of thought
|5 years ago :: Apr 03, 2009 - 3:22PM #4|
Hello MattP --- you wouldn't be mattyp, by any chance? Welcome back to A&R, I've been wondering where you were....
Nice post.... sometimes you'll feel more lonely in a crowd of friends and strangers than you will alone in the wilderness. You can never escape yourself. Your mind is not your enemy, it can be your friend if you let it.
(((( hugs )))))
Tribalism, ethnocentricism, racism, nationalism, and FEAR is the Mind Killer... >:(
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