Why is it when I'm sober

Everything hurts me inside

I reach out to god for freedom

Freedom from the screams in my mind

I let god in

I try not to sin

I always try to be kind

They tell me to do this for me

Look deep in myself to find me

If I am happy with me

I will find what I need

To get myself free from my mind

I am doing all this for me

I am not trying to hide inside me

God gives me repreves

And I am happy with me

But I can't seem to let myself fly

No one lets me in

Or tells me of my sins

Those sins that I dont realize

I see them everyday

I always stop & say hey

They let me walk on

Like I'm doing it wrong

But I look deep inside & don't see

I try to find help to see

Except no one is talkig with me

So I sit here alone in a crowd

I just want to sit here & cry

When I cry it helps me inside

Gets me free from the screems in my mind

I am peaceful again

I am letting god in

I am doing the best that I can

What is it that I have to be

So peaple start talking with me

And I might loose that hurt inside

The eternal question how to get away from yourself

"Wherever you go there you are"

The answer is paradoxical as all great truths are

Get drunk, stoned, eat, have sex, blah blah blah bla bla

Yet in the end we are all failures

In the words of Shakespeare " A tale told by an idiot signifying nothing"

Oh yeah the answer !! Be a great failure

Once you truly accept that all structures are unstable including your mind (ego) you transcend it and find that "you (true essence)" are the answer

"you are the truth the way and the life"