| 4 years ago :: Feb 21, 2009 - 1:33PM #1 | |
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So what started this was seeing a client at my clinic yesterday (I'm a veterinary assitant). The owner was an old lady in a wheelchair and had a young lady and a nun as her assistant. This wasn't a habit-and-rosary brand of nun, just the plain clothes version. I don't have a lot of experience with nuns as they typically don't thread their way through the everyday traffic of my life.
I will try to put this as succintly as possibly, but to put this in context, I will lay out for full disclosure that I am a tiny bit of a history nerd and am equally disturbed and fascinated by how the Catholic church completely weaseled its way into so many "primative" cultures by assimilation of holidays, traditions, etc. I am also a fan of the idea, as laid out in "The MIsts of Avalon" and perhaps other unknown (to me) works that the worship of Mary was the echo of what had once been the worship fo the Divine Feminine in general. I also really love entertaining the concept of a kind of sanctuary, or isolated place of learning, like the aforementioned Avalon, where devotion and inner development take the forefront. So when I see a nun (or a monk - of any denomination, remember, there are Buddhists, too), this idea of a peacful sanctuary springs to the front of my mind. While being of a nature-centric beliefs myself, I'll be the first one to tout the virtues of being a pagan because our temple/church/synagoge (sp?) is everywhere and anywhere for us at any time. We don't require intermediaries to speak with the God and Goddess and the nearest worship space is right outside our door or inside our hearts. We're open 24/7 and completely travel friendly. We are just that cool. But man, when times get tough (and if you live in Michigan, tough is a way of life right now) and I see someone who can return back to his or her sanctuary and just wrap it around themselves like a blanket, I admit that I envy them that access. Is it just a human desire to have a place to hide for a while? Is it perfectly natural to want to dig deep now and then and just shut the door on the cares of the world for a while? I know I don't need a special time and place to talk to the God or Goddess, but I've felt that tingling divine energy in Europe's cathedrals as much as I have watching the sunset on the farm or having a purring cat in my lap. I know it's everywhere, but sometimes I wish I had a place where I could just go away and shut everything off for a while and just surround myself in devotion and communication with the Divine, where I can just lay down my troubles and quietly or openly weep on the shoulder of the gods? Is that completely oxymoronic or is it perhaps a natural desire when things start to get a litle overwhelming? Does anyone else think about this? Cheers, Sunflower |
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| 4 years ago :: Feb 22, 2009 - 9:03AM #2 | |
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Sunflower,I think I understand what you mean.Sometimes it is difficult to have that"sanctuary"to go to.From a Pagans view,churches are everywhere but its not like thousands of years ago when temples were everywhere.There are times when I go into nature,or meditate.But thats not always possible.One thing about Europe and Scandinavia,some of the really really old churches are built on top of a Pagan temple or holy spot.I dont know exactly what youre situation is,but maybe you could make a little altar or quiet place thats just for you.Eve just a little spot on your dresser or table that you can decorate and make beautiful.I ike to place some pictures around and stuff thats always there for me to look at.You probably already know all this anyway.As far as Mary goes,I totally agree with you about the Catholic church using Mary as an archetypeal female Goddess to replace others.I dont really envy nuns or priests that much.I admire their dedication and they probably feel very protected by belonging to the church.But to me they are also very much stifled and limited by that,Thats what they chose and I am Ok with it.I know what you mean by overwhelmed.Life can be so hectic and exhausting sometimes.I wish there were temples around I could go to like the ancient times.The church supplanted Paganism worldwide and I suppose I resent that in a way.I dont hate the church or christians at all.Its difficult to explain..Sometimes all we have is whats in our hearts and Ive found thats good enough for me.Its the little things that make being a Pagan special.Like a pendant or ring,a picture or a stone I found.A prayer to Goddess anytime of the day.I would love for my life to be all devotion,rituals meditation and magic but my life has not typically unfolded like that.We do what we can because we are totally cool like that.btw my family lived in Michigan for a while Kalamazoo(a long time ago)..O well I hope this hasnt been too much about just me but I know what you mean.
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| 4 years ago :: Feb 22, 2009 - 5:22PM #3 | |
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Well, also being a history nerd, I always regret seeing the Catholic Church set up into the same type of role that Satan provides within that faith. A by-product of the insular nature of Western culture, I suspect. Within modern Paganism, the mythological histories also tend to cast Christianity into the role of the proverbial bad guy that goodness (i.e. - us Pagans) is measured against, certainly a quick way to promote and foster a victim mentality, I'm afraid. Faiths do not come out of nor do they exist within a vacuum. I have yet to find any faith with sufficient evidence or antcedotal information of what it represents that hasn't assimilated earlier or contemporary holidays and traditions as people convert. Elevating this universal practice on behalf of one specific faith as if they hold some kind of copyright in doing so speaks to something else, I'm afraid than religious history. Ironic isn't it? Modern Paganism has yet to be defined sufficiently to be a religion other than in the first-person while the movement or spectrum of self-identified and -defined beliefs that constitutes Modern Paganism is literally based on borrowing the traditions, holidays etc of other faiths and adapting them. The kettle and the pot and who is really black as it were. Now getting into claims that Paganism was worldwide (now or in ancient times) on the other hand drags one into umbrella terms and gets very messy, very quickly. As a Dianic and a Goddess Scholar, I also consider it to be a very slippery and alluring slope to yank any feminine figure from within the history, culture, religion etc in which ‘she’ evolved. People obviously do as doing so serves many agendas but personally I remain wary of yanking Mary out of context to serve a different agenda as if Christianity isn’t where she belongs or that this faith doesn’t have a right to decide who Mary is or what she represents. As for sanctuaries, that is a timely and important topic. Thank you for introducing it here. I feel that it is a very real human need to have downtime and a resting place from time to time. It is perfectly natural to want to dig in as you so aptly put it and shut the door on the cares of the world. Many due to responsibilities (imposed or taken upon) or through lack of privacy, respect and opportunity are denied this and that is spiritually, physically and emotionally wearing. With today's Modern Paganism not being considered 'a' religion, this certainly presents challenges where sanctuaries are concerned. It is as you have stated, unnecessary to have intermediaries etc when one self-defines as a Pagan. So each individual who self-identifies as Pagan must decide if this is needed and how to achieve such. Now there are Groves and Camps, Retreats and private Temples that small groups or networks have created as shared sanctuaries, permanently or temporarily for events. Supporting permanent structures on the other hand that are not intimate or private creates a perennial problem of having no established shared religious infrastructure (or religion) to support or justify sanctuaries such as convents or monasteries.
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| 4 years ago :: Feb 22, 2009 - 7:37PM #4 | |
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| 4 years ago :: Mar 16, 2009 - 12:40PM #5 | |
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I find it strange that pagans, Wiccans, and any of the older religions were branded as "heathen" when they came first. I've found one version of Mary that I like in the books of Rebecca Welles who writes the Ya-ya series, The original core of 4 girls declared themselves priestesses of the Moon Goddess as her Divine daughters, and they associated that Lady with Mary.While the characters are Roman Catholic for the most part, the one person they trust in the whole pantheon is Mary. Not as the sweet, meek Mary of the Church, but of the woman who could crush snakes with her bare feet. A feisty Mary who could have told the Angel Gabriel "No" but made the choice herself.They build little altars for themselves. By many sects I am not a "proper" Christian because I don't believe there can be a limit to the paths we take on our way back to the Divinity we sprang from. And our past President could proclaim the USA a "Christian nation" without making it true. It has never been soley Christian and I hope that it never is. I think we all need a sanctuary in our lives only if it is a place and time in our lives that was a moment of beauty enriched by being surrounded by love. During the Winter months I want to crawl back into bed and stay there until Spring. The desire to hibernate is so strong that it must have been a survival trait. At a time when food was scarce, spending as much time sleeping would lower the amount of calories that were being burned and stretch the food supply.Sometimes our bodies know what we should be doing more than our minds do. I believe in the Mother Goddess, be she Azna, Mary, Diana, or Isis. I think that after all the years of worshipping the Mother Goddess, the early followers of Christianity decided to make the new religion more palatable by switching over the power to the men and keeping out any writings that would have given us an equal footing. The church I was raised in is beginning a tradition of praying to Mary among a small group. At least they did allow women to become priests instead of always being regulated to the behind the scenes work of my childhood. "Eve's sin?" The Damnation of unbaptised babies? No religion that understood that we are part of Nature instead of apart from it could have dreamed those up. I knew something had been chopped out when Cain got thrown out and went someplace else to find a wife. Either there were more people created, or his wife needed a body shave. It was just glossed over with not arguing with the Bible; I just wanted it to make sense. I am part of every where I have lived because I have been nourished physically and spiritually by it. I have had contacts from people I've loved who have crossed over. I consider it an honor and I say thank you when it happens. I've remembered a few deaths that were centuries apart. So I'm really confused as to what my "religion" is when I'd much rather be a pagan than belong to a sect of Christianity that insists on shackling your mind.
"You are letting your opinion be colored by facts again."
'When I want your opinion, I'll give it to you." these are both from my father. |
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| 4 years ago :: Mar 18, 2009 - 8:44AM #6 | |
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Karbie, I've often thought that hibernation in winter should have been a human survival trait but then I live in Canada. While sleeping a lot, staying indoors and eating less works within certain cultures and climates, usually it isn't as evolutionarily sound. Would be lovely though. Paganism has yet to be defined as a singular shared religion and despite the claims of mythological history, the Religion of Wicca was conceived in the 20th century. So neither deserves the title of older religions or the antiquity of coming first. The word Paganism comes from the Latin paganus (plural pagani) which meant a civilian or someone who wasn't in military service within the Roman Empire. Early Christians used to denote themselves as 'soldiers of Christ' and therefore came to call anyone who wasn't Christian as paganus. Since Christianity spread most rapidly in urban areas, the term also came to mean those who lived in rural areas. Heathen is believed to be a Northern European term that also refers to country dwellers, which is probably why it is ascribed as coming from paganus. The etymological journey of paganism has a long history in European literature until it was adapted and co-opted in the 20th century into modern Paganism within which Wicca came into being. I am both a Pagan and a Dianic, the latter being a follower of a modern faith that is Goddess-only and women-only. I'm also a Goddess Scholar by dedication so I understand the accessiblity of sources that claim an ancient 'Mother Goddess' based on any feminine deity or women with significant roles being conflated together. It is up to you what you believe and you certainly wouldn't be the first to do so. Such has great evocative power but what we know to date of documented history does not support this claim. There is however evidence on how this mythology evolved over the centuries from various sources. Iti s also useful to keep in mind that fiction writers deal in speculative history as well in order to tell evocative stories. If you are interested, may I suggest you might want to locate a book called THE MYTH OF THE GODDESS, EVOLUTION OF AN IMAGE, by Anne Baring and Jules Cashford. Written by two women scholars (neither Pagan), it is a superb journey through the imagery of the Feminine Divine from Palaeolithic times to now. Without a single mention of the speculative history of modern Paganism, they place the feminine divine including Mary within historical contexts and also discuss at depth the symbolic borrowing that took place. As such, based on everything I have studied over the decades, I would have to respectfully disagree that early Christians ever worshipped a Mother Goddess or any feminine deity. Now the Gnostics did have Sophia but even so, when you study deeper, you find she isn't a 'goddess' per se within that context. Christianity was a sect of Judaism originally and long after the latter became a monolithic faith aligned to tribal male authority. Early Hebrews did have a pantheon including goddesses but again, that was long before Christianity evolved. The absence of information about the roles and importance of women may owe far more to the survival of historical transmission than actual suppression. We will never know for sure. I would agree that Mary within the Christian framework does take on or was imbued with many of the symbols and characteristics of goddess worship but this is common for any feminine figure/human within a religious context to some extent. I think to understand Mary, one needs to consider her as first and foremost human. Of course I am not Christian, so that remains simply my opinion. All humans have the potential ability to remember past lives. I as a Pagan Witch work through having a heightened awareness of that ability that I use as a healing tool. You may wish to consider developing your awareness as well, if you are interested. There are various techniques and practises that I have found helpful. Only you can identify what you are religiously however. In twenty-five years of self-identifying as a Pagan, I have found only four commonalties that seem to apply to all Pagans: Individuals self-identify as Pagan. He or she self-defines what this means. Validation is almost always experiential. (First person) No one can agree outside of limited consensus (an already established religion or group that self-identifies as or as also Pagan) what Paganism is sufficiently to create a singular definition that fits all. I have also noted four generalities that seem to apply to some or many but not to all Pagans. That self-responsibility lies at the core of any spiritual path. Responsibility is not rules or laws or rigid doctrine but rather it is the self's response-ability. This includes accepting all consequences for one's actions, not passing the buck, projecting it onto others/entities and dealing with any backlash/feedback from actions taken. That learning is always experiential and that one makes meaning from one's direct experiences. This includes that some things can be taught from second- or third-hand written sources where others share his or her experiences but these sources are not divinely revealed sources of wisdom. That the Divine or Source is essentially recognisable and more reasonable as being polytheistic rather than monotheistic. The concept of an uber-deity that trumps or contains or reflects all other deities does exist within the breadth of Paganism but it is not widely held. That nature is not irrelevant to one's spirituality because as human beings we cannot be considered separately from nature. This may mean a (Pagan) faith that is mainly or greatly nature-oriented or -worshipping by being personified by nature. Or that nature should be respected both for its omnipresent impact/power and in how one enacts one's life within nature. Or that nature at the very least must be taken into account independently from human needs. Apart from these commonalties and generalities, self-identifying Pagans adapt, borrow, combine and create a broad spectrum and diversity of faiths that is truly astounding. You may find that you align to doing so. Hope something is helpful, C.H.
No one cares how much you know until they know how much you care.
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| 4 years ago :: Mar 20, 2009 - 10:03PM #7 | |
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Holy crap, Creaky. You make me feel like I should be taking notes. I guess what really made (and still makes) me think of this whole idea of sanctuary is just my intermittent daydreaming of having somewhere to go where I can shut the door behind me and just be away for a while; be away from it all and feel safe and unjudged. I haven't had a vacation in years and I'm bone tired and spirit-weary. I want someone else to carry the load for a while and I envy what can be seen as the blind devotion that seems to ease the burden from so many. I'm sure I'm wrong. They might be nuns, but they're still human beings. Ah well. I can sleep in on Sundays. The Christians can't. And I don't think nuns sleep in ever. |
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| 4 years ago :: Mar 20, 2009 - 10:06PM #8 | |
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I must say this is a wonderful discussion. We all need a place to belong, this is a basic human need. I feel that this need is one of the main reasons for the developement of "organized" religion. I have been a self identified Pagan for nearly 30 years. This has been a never ending quest for knowledge of self and the universe that surrounds us. I agree whole heartedly with CHW's definition of paganism. I do not ascribe to any particular sect or group, never cared much for the defined ritual... It can be very hard to put aside the time needed for meditation and reflection. I also live in Michigan, things are very hard here right now, the energy level used to make it through each day and keep the negative at bay can be quite astonishing. I find the early morning hours when most of the area has not yet awakened and I have not yet slept to be the best time for this. The mental noise level is at it's lowest ebb and the birds cause me to rejoice, they are not a nuisance. I believe in the concept of totality, I worship the male aspect as well as the female. I place this mother earth into the final leg of the trinity. We all have to find our own path. Some follow the teachings as taught, some sift and sort and igure out the way for themselves. You will find a place to belong, it will come to you. Sometimes we can be looking so hard for something that it isn't until we relax and just let things be that we find it. Peace be with you. |
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| 4 years ago :: Mar 21, 2009 - 12:24PM #9 | |
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Sunflower, I do tend to run on and on at times with familiar subjects....but it is only my opinions. You have expressed quite eloquently what I also think is one of the fundamental human needs. We all need a place we can go, rest, be safe and unjudged. I do empathise with being bone tired and spirit-weary. There are times when life feels like it is all uphill, everything is an effort, like you are running on empty and that darn mountain top never seems to get any closer. Those times can become cumulative, I went through years of that during my twenties. I don't know your circumstances or the load you are carrying and you haven't asked for any suggestions but I would still like to offer a couple of experiences that helped me along the way. The (Pagan) faith that I found in my late twenties and thirties has been the bedrock of my life ever since. My mileage not yours but I do remember all too well being spirit-weary as you so aptly put it. I have a safe place to go within that is always with me and I go there whenever the world gets too much. As you pointed out, a faith may provide this for those that believe profoundly though it will manifest in different ways. My faith and my experiences teach me that all things are cyclic and that nothing lasts forever. One will naturally have down periods in one's life and however much we think we have everything under control, life keeps constantly changing. What goes down will go up again and then down and so on. The celebratory framework and daily practices implicit within my faith acknowledge this cyclic pattern, reminding me that all is changing despite anything I can do. That puts my 'down' periods that I still experience into perspective and lets me focus more in the moment. I was a caregiver to my late mother (Alzheimer's) for seven years and I was (wisely) taught that the caregiver must take care of the caregiver first. Otherwise one ends up with nothing to give. I saw that in other caregivers and I did choose to put certain parts of my life on hold for that time. Yet in the very act of realising that I was also worthy of being cared for and taking/making the time for me to rest, recoup, relax and recharge, I was able to be there over that duration for my mother. That caregiving experience tested and transformed me as I suspect coping with your own load has been doing for you as well. If I could, I would change that she was ill and isn't well and alive today but not the strength and clarity that that experience taught me. Even more it brought home to me that to be truly self-responsible (one of the tenets of my faith) one must value oneself enough to make choices that may seem selfish to others. Delegating or shifting some of our load can initially startle others in our lives and it can be hard to let go of that control, especially if one prefers things done a certain way (like me). Yet accepting compromise also creates spaces in one's life when one can rest, recoup, relax and recharge. Mind you, I can still run myself into the ground through old habits on occasion but there is this celestial two-by-four that comes tapping on the back of my skull or I heard whooshing by through the voices of loved ones that gets me refocused. For each of us, what works spiritually will be different so please keep looking for what works for you. Sleeping in on Sundays, giving yourself a moment to check in with how you are feeling, doing something special for yourself, connecting with those that give you positive feedback, daydreaming an inward vacation...it doesn't have to be anything ground-breaking. The little things also become cumulative too. Anyway, I'm not sure any of this is helpful but I hope it is. You are on a journey - your path- wherever that takes you and even if you don't notice it (and somedays we all forget to notice) , you are getting closer to that mountain top. My mother used to say that once you get there and over the top, gravity takes over, you pick up speed without trying and going downhill is a breeze! Of course that was about aging and I'm mixing my analogies here but sometimes downhill isn't all bad for a while. C.H.
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| 4 years ago :: Mar 21, 2009 - 12:28PM #10 | |
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Amelus, Welcome to the boards and thanks for contributing. We're a little quiet since the move, many of the regulars don't seem to have caught up with our new digs as yet. I keep seeing my name as the last poster on so many threads...really looking forward to folks turning up again! I agree. The need for belonging and acceptance is profound and powerful. There isn't any part of society I think that isn't implicit in this need though satisfying such creates endless diversity. I see the tension of this need pulled taut within the search of Pagan newbies and also those experienced who are searching for the right group, path or tradition or a community (of other Pagans) to belong to. Yet belonging and acceptance takes many forms and these will change as we grow older and experiences widen our horizons. The very richness of diversity that is modern Paganism presents a challenge for such a search yet doesn't it all start with the searcher? As you put it, "Sometimes we can be looking so hard for something that it isn't until we relax and just let things be that we find it." I remember well the moment that happened to and for me years ago. The collective gestalt created by the last year or so is quite palpable as you aptly described in your post. Anyone who is aware of energy (emotive etc) has certainly had to deal with the evolving resonace. The media certainly has had a hand in shaping this negativity and fear along with the impacts to the global economy that is reverberating like a spider's web being shaken. Are you a night owl? I love dawn rituals and reflection and find the energy is profoundly different when the area around my home is still sleeping. I however usually do so after sleeping. C.H.
No one cares how much you know until they know how much you care.
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