In just the last month I have let go of three relationships that are unhealthy for me. Good choice for me right? Right? But in doing so, I had to hurt the people that I was leacing behind. Mired in their own stuff, they were unable, for many different reasons, to understand why I had to move on. Two actually pleaded with me to continue our relationships. And I know this is the right choice, all those I trust around me are in agreement.
So why is it so hard? I dont' let go. I still know almost everyone who was significant in my life: the people who lived next door when I was a child, friends from grande school, junior high and high school. Friends from places I used to live. Friends and family of friends and family. If you touched my life, you are in it for life.
And sometimes this is god. I think its good that people feel that comforatble wit me. The problem is, when things are unhealthy and its time to move on, I dont know how. Wiht one guy I had to actually change my phone number.
And it breaks my heart to hurt these people but there behavior is not healthy for me. I know this, yet every day I have to fight a desire to call them, to interact and try again, to make the lose okay for them.
Why? Can anyone explain this to me? Why can't I let go and why must I make everyone feel good, even if being with them does not make me feel good? ANy comments are welcome.