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So sorry i've been away for so long. To many problems to deal with. If anyone needs to talk please contact me. Love and Light, Alysa
I'm new to his group. I've been addicted to medication and it doesn't really help with my depression and anxiety. I just take one day at a time though.
Hello i am new in this page, i dont take meds, bcauz i think that mayb it will do good in one thing but its goin to damage some part of other organs.. but i try to do exercise and do yoga once in a while.. Thank you god bless you all!!
Hello! I just joined your group in hope of my friends and to have people to talk. I have been taking meds for depression for years and feel like they are not working. I always feel so lost and alone. stuck where no one can help! My mind is always going over so many things at once.I would love to have more friends!
I am new to this group I suffer from major depression, post dramatic syndrome, And aniety issues, I had an abusive father and mother. It is complicated. any way if anyone needs a friend to chat you can chat with me or whatever. Thak you
Hello, Im new to this site, and hoping that somebody out in the world can help me. I am diagnosed with depression and anxiety, and have never felt so alone, and insignificant in my life.
Hi. I am new to groups, too. I have an 8 year old son with Asperger's Syndrome (a form of autism), ADHD, and a host of other issues. I would enjoy chatting with you. It sounds like we have some things in common.
Hi I am new to joining groups. I usually don't like to join them but thank God for the internet I can be at home,wearing whatever, looking however and not worry about it. I guess I should tell you about myself and why I am joining in.
As far back as I can remember I have had the thorn of depression/anxiety in my life. I have always had this cloud follow me. I have adapted to it over the years, sometimes from the survival mode, sometimes in healthy ways and sometimes not.
I was adopted as an infant and in '01 found a biological half-sister who also suffers from the same and in finding our deceased mothers' sister and another half sibling it is clear that we all have this "thorn". This was a great relief to me that I could put it in a hereditary column, that I could stop thinking that there was some great trauma I had not dug deep enough into or a character flaw, or I was making it up, or this is how everyone feels and I'm just being a baby,etc.
I have been to countless counselors and psychiatrists, even studied psychology and mental illnesses, to intellectually understand myself and find out "what was wrong with me" lol.
I think that our scientific - physiological studies are wonderful in the sense that the stigma is at least somewhat less now that they can point to specific brain regions, chemical imbalances etc., and while that helps me (-esp. in explaining depression etc. to my own daughter who is 15 and has my symptoms also, that it is like diabetes or a heart condition, it just is and you did nothing wrong to "get it".), it doesn't always help the emotional responses I have.
I grew up with a dysfunctional, alcoholic turned religious step-father who was abusive in both states and I think the religious state was worse because he used it to give himself permission to act in the abusive ways he did. My mother was co-dependent and in her/his own views of being a "submissive Christian wife" she was always praying for God to change her or us. After 15 years of that I had had enough and tried to kill myself which, she says, opened her eyes to the seriousness of our situation. Thank God she was strong enough to leave and had just gotten her RN and had a good job. He left with a warning from the state and the closing of the door.
Ironically - both my half-siblings grew up in similar environments and so did our biological mother and aunt. So is it genetic or environment I think both.
So that is over 25 years ago with a lot of those years spent trying to heal the hurts of an abusive/alcoholic/religious fanatic step-father. Until I felt exhausted from going over and over the same subject... And then the hereditary part came and I felt some relief. But all this does not make the day to day always easier to deal with.
I also found out I had Adult ADHD, which I was diagnoised with at 6 but I was so calm on the meds my blessed mother took me off them. So that label was another good for me, to help me deal with the feelings of I am crazy or lazy or whatever (and yes I read that book ) But again, intellectual understanding doesn't always help with the emotional and I will add physical feelings of dealing with this "stuff" everyday.
I, even after learning about the dysfunctional circles of abuse,etc., etc., I managed to find someone, actually 2 someones who each had half the dynamics of my ex-step father. One a alcoholic/drug user and the other the mental and physical abuser. I am a stubborn girl. OMG!!!! And I married the 2nd one not once but twice!
I have two beautiful girls, one each from those 2 relationships. And I now have guardianship of another daughter and son from my ex-husbands previous marriage. And I love them as my own flesh and blood.
My oldest da is 15 she has been diagnosed with depression,anxiety, bi-polar, ADHD & PTSD. She started cutting and we deal with that and her meds and school a lot. My youngest has Spinal Muscular Atrophy Type II, if you want to know ask me I don't mind explaining that one, she is in a wheelchair but as far as everything else she is the same as any other child. Just fragile.
So getting to the now, I have been blessed with an awesome counselor who sees me for free because I am at home with the youngest and honestly am really not in a place where I could hold a job anyway. Which is why I joined this group.
I think I need to find others who are dealing with depression and I guess this is my first step toward the "group" thing. I have had esp. after my divorce ('06) a worsening of my anxiety and not really participated in anything outside of what is absolutely necessary. For a while being in my "cave" was comforting and I still find it so on occasion, but I simply cannot stay there forever as much as I think I would love to. I struggle everyday to push myself on for my children.
I have a strong faith, and am trying to work myself up to actually going to my church. But as for now, getting to the store or Dr. appts,or kids school is about all I can do. My counselor has talked to me about finding groups but the thought of going outside to a group well the anxiety level jumps just writing it here.
So here I am. Sorry this is so long but if I am going to join the best way perhaps is to just jump in instead of "toeing" it. And well you can't see me and I can't see you so if I feel threatened or uncomfortable all I have to do is turn the computer off.
Thank you for reading this and I will appreciate any comments or questions or whatever. I am also here because I believe in sharing my "thorn" perhaps I can help another and that act in itself is a good RX. By the way I forgot to mention I am on meds. And as that would be one of my first questions for someone if I read this I figured I better add that.
Thanks again - Tiggerlilly68
I found a pray to share. it's helping me hang on hope you guys like it
PRAYER TO LIVE WITH PEACE
May we discover through pain and torment,
the stength to live with grace and humor.
May we discover through doubt and anguish.
the strength to live with dignity and holiness
May we discover through suffering and fear,the strength to move toward healing
May it come to pass that we be restored to health and vigor
May Life grant us wellness of body,spirit and mind
And if this moment cannot be so,may we find transformation and passage
moments of meaning,opportunities for love
and the deep gracious calm that comes when we allow ourselves to move on.
RABBI RAMI M SHAPIRIO
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Peace Love Stardove