when i was young i never really hated my mom though i never liked her that much as well. i'm seeing her as a competition. i'm a dad's girl and i don't have much time to appreciate my mom that time since i was pretty much overwhelmed with my dad's attention (you know being the favorite among the siblings...doesn't it feel great???). we were pretty much well off that time, what "ethel wants, ethel gets"...but when the tide turned and we can taste poverty already, it tested our faith, our bond...and at last, i saw her innate goodness and appreciate her for the first time. till i got pregnant, she never left me. she turned out to be my one good friend. now i'm working thousands of miles away from my family and it's kind of sad that as a nurse and a daughter, i'm not even home to take care of her. she's battling breast cancer and she just had her last session of chemo. i'm just hoping and praying that after the surgery and chemo she will be cancer free. it's difficult for me coz i need to earn to support her but i want also to take care of her personally. i love my mom so much and i have high hopes that God will save her coz i know that He's never blind nor deaf to our prayers... ...here's to you mom ....i know how tough life is for you right now but i promise you one thing .....i'll always be there for you ...just KeeP the Faith ....i love yah!!! .....HaPPy 60th bday!!!!

Whenever we’re facing too much problems…whenever we feel terrified…too scared…we keep on questioning God..."is this for real?...am i really facing too much difficulties which i can no longer contain?... are you with me?... do i deserve this?...blah…blah…blah…" too much questions huh! i'm on the verge of breaking down...it felt that i had no one to turn to...i'm all alone... although my family and friends gave me too much encouragement and support...still, it felt the same... i've given up... then one time i spoke with one friend and he told me too much...he said "...leave something for "GOD" but never leave "GOD" for something. coz in life, something will leave you... but "GOD" will ALWAYS be there for you!..." i thought about it...suddenly i've realized that really i doubted him. then i asked myself..."DID I EVER TRUST HIM?...EM I KEEPING THE FAITH?" ... the answer is yes...i trusted him... but not that much... and that is why it felt so miserable... i was so boastful thinking that i manage everything ALONE... then HE gave me a tap on the shoulder just to remind me that "HEY, you still need me...don't you?"...really it was a shame... and i learned one thing... it's never too late to realize all your faults...it's never too late to ask for forgiveness... just believe that everything will happen through His grace... He's the one responsible for everything... be thankful for the blessings you've received ...big or small... and yeah my friend your right...don’t ever say that "oh God i have a big problem...say Oh problem i have a big GOD"... it really happen...when you just believe...

Have you ever been betrayed??? ... of course the answer is a pounding YES!!!! ...this happens to EVERYONE... ...no exemption... ....what's so funny is that most of the times, you usually experience it from the person you know... ...from family... friends... lovers... NAME IT... ...someone you cared the most... somebody related to you... ....and the odd question is that.... ....."does anyone care???".... ...har!!!..har!!!..har!!!... ....we all claim that we definitely care and that we're just too vulnerable to repel, we just don't know how to deal with the situation... blah! blah!...blah! .....sad but really true... ... most of the times we're doing something that can hurt other people unconsciously... ....we're too overwhelmed with what we have or what we feel that's why... ...but, if you're betraying somebody on purpose, with that wicked interest on mind.... ...hmmm, take a closer look at the situation and what this could bring...ouch!!! ....Don't you just wish you can see it coming???? ...feel it??? ...sense the ODD SMELL OF BETRAYAL??? Ethelq5

...i was feeling very low spirited one night...i wanna cry...i wanna shout...i wanna mess up... ...i miss my family so much...not even friends can cheer me up...not even bacardi... ...i may be good in concealing things infront of other people but i can never deceive my own self. .....i never felt so tired my whole life till then...i was really on the verge of breaking down...i wanna be numb, feel nothing...even for that moment alone.... ....i really miss my family...i miss spending time with them...with my sweetest fruit JaCH...aaahhhhhh....i can't wait to be back home... ....then suddenly i got a message from my mobile...it was from my dad and the message was... " I know how hard it is to be there so far away from your loveones but there are reasons why you are there... ...that is only a part of God's plan for you....Stand, fight and struggle ...there's always a light at the end of the tunnel...I Love You and I miss You"... ....I was silent that moment...savoring each and every word written...reading it not just once...nor twice...several times.... ....really i thank God for having a family like mine...especially my DAD... ...he never failed to remind me how important i am to HIM, to our family... ....he never failed to believe in me ....he never failed to trust me .....never failed to show how much he care and love me... ...Here's to you DaD... ...thanks for being the pillar of my strength... ....thanks for the unending love and support... ....thanks for being the WiNd Beneath My WiNGs... ....i love you Dad...