Sunday, December 23, 2012, 2:58 AM
Many people lately have been going through the world is going to end craze. I personally did not. I believe what the Bible says that we do not know the day or the time. So when people were freaking out weather or not they were going to die on Friday, I went about my everyday life as I know it.
When I was a little girl in the 80's I would hear about stranger danger and child deaths, I would get so fearful of dying.
I went through the fear of dying thing til I hit my teens. When my teenage days came all I could think about was jumping off a cliff!
I grew up, became an adult started living life on my terms meaning I was on my own paying my bills, living my life.. the whole dyng thing went away. At 27, 28, 29 I had a total of 8 pill overdoses. Survivied every single one. The doctors were absoulty amazed.
I'm amazed now, but then I really did'nt care if I passed. I have been off of pills, Okay I will call them what they are... DRUGS for 4 years in May.
I have not since my last overdose in April of 2009 had, had the death wish/ paranoia of dying.
This week I have been paranoid of this being it. I have been trying to wrap my brain around as to why I feel this way. It hit me. The world is ending. Not the POOF! we are all gone ending but the the world is ending the way we know it!!
I know almost every parent on the planet is fearful for their children and I'm sure the thought of dying or loosing a loved one had defintently crossed our minds this last week. The whole paranoia I might die soon thing really hit me this morning when a person in Lancaster PA Killed a woman decorating a church, then went on to kill 2 other people.
She was decorating a church! She was living her life. Like I live mine.
It is acts such as this is how the world is ending and how we are dying.