I was born a sinner, chosen by God to be saved by His Grace, granted salvation through Our Savior, Jesus Christ.
I have a strong Christian background with years of private Christian school and "never miss a Sunday" badges at my church through my college years. I moved away from my home town at 22 and found myself married, divorced, alone and left holding a 6 month old baby over the next 3 years.
I met the man that changed my life within the next year and we have been married for more than 20 years now. When he suffered a second (and disabling) stroke, I found myself realizing that I had gotten away from the support that a church community can offer and that one more time, I was very alone.
I got involved with a church once again. This time I left my fundamentalist fire-and-brimstone non-demoninational upbringing and went to an ELCA Lutheran church, mainly on the pleas from a long-time friend. I love the ceremony and tradition of the services. I love the structure; the foundations; and the heritage of a 237 year old congregation. But after about 18 months, I am right back to the same emptiness again. I am at a point now that I don't know whether to go church shopping or give up or tough it out.
I come to table hoping to find friendship, encouragement and support. All those things I used to get from my church-----back when things were simple. Simple? Now I know I'm dreaming!