I have a private online journal that I use quite frequently. I was re-reading my posts, and the following paragraph from last spring struck me as being deeply true. Not sure if you know what I mean … Something that isn't just a surface truth that changes with the events, but a statement that touches on bedrock and is core to who I am. It has been the focus of much of my inner contemplation today. I think this is part of the passion and the 'geekiness' that defines me:
"Knowing with relative certainty that something else waits
around the corner for me, I want to get there ... to be
there. I have always been that way, my whole life. I want
to go to that new place. I want to follow the wild goose
in the fall. I want to learn that new thing. I want to
gain that new skill. I want to deepen that talent, go to
that place inside where I have never been. I don't think I
am hopping from one high point to another, because I don't
mind the work, the learning, the training. I want to
deepen. I want to become. Sometimes, it feels like a geis
layed upon me. Like the dancer with the elvish boots, I
can't stop, even if my feet get bloody."
I wonder about others out there. Do any of you ever feel this way too?