Well here I go again... I havnt been here in a while so this is what is happening now. Well my very heated hot flashes has subsided. And other things have been happening. Yesterday I went to see my pcp an there were several thing that I needed to address to him.Well things were happening with my health an every time I would call because something was happening to me, health wise. He wouldnt even call me back. Some times I would leave a message with his receptionist an she would call me back to see if I was ok. And she tell me that she has to check with pcp to open up some time sceduals. But he never ever seems to call me back. Well on tuesday I went to see him an I had several things to be done. 1. was to see an artheritus specialist. 2. was to get a sleep apnea test done. 3. was to see a dentist. Well guess what he said ? HE SAID I WAS IMAGINING ALL THESE THINGS ! Can you believe that ??? And he told me that its just my ANXIETY & THAT I THINK AN WORRY TO MUCH ABOUT MY HEALTH. IM A WORRIER !!! Then he said that theres gonna come to a point when he just have to say NO !!! an deny me any help that I need. And I need to work thing out my pychiatrist. oh he hurt my feeling really bad that I started to cry and I stomped outta there. I headed straight for the liquior store cause I wanted to drink, I was pissed !!! If he's not gonna help me f**k*m (Exscuse my language) But I never bought any liquior I just bought me a bottle of pepsi & ciggerettes. But the rest of the afternoon it was still in my mind to drink an to beat up anybody who got in my way. I was so pumped I couldnt believe my doctor said that. He's been are family pcp for years now. Anyways my friend called me to go for a cruz that night just to ride around an talk.Well we ended up at the beach an we just chilled there for a while then we headed home. I was okay then., but next day I felt like I had a no-care in the world additude. An I still wanted to drink but I didnt. (Thank God !) But anyways my friend suguested that I change my pcp. And I think Ill do that. Yesterday I went to another friends house, just to take my mind of things, an to keep me from doing something stupid. Well anyways... I think Im doing okay... I dunno yet ? Kinda mix moods right now. Anyways thanks for reading about me. God Bless Everyone !!!