Hi, I am a 43 yr old woman living in the Great White North of Michigan, I am going through a divorce and a recent diagnosis of a chronic illness. I am looking to connect with people with similar interest and outlooks to help remind me I am not totally alone in this world. I love crafting and being creative in general, and I need to tap into that side of myself more. I have two beautiful grown children, my daughter who is my best friend,and my wonderful calm, compassionate son. I have two dachsunds who make me laugh every day, and my best girlfriend in the world, Terry. I have worked as a nurse for 21 yrs and have learned through this what is important in life. I am a geriatric nurse and have helped alot of people on their last journey from this Earth. I have learned what is important in life by watching people reflect in their last days over their choices and decisions they made in their own. I have watched as they have either struggled to come to peace over it, or as they have warmly and joyously looked back with family and friends. I have felt priviliged to have been given the opportunity to be a part of something so sacred as helping a life pass over from this realm to the next. Thank You Father for the opportunity to learn more about other people and more about myself, its been a strange year and a really long time since I've stopped and looked at myself and what I want in my life. I am going to have faith that this will help me figure that out. I moved from an open space, a beautiful area where you can breathe freely, see forever, stand in the open and feel the spirit of the earth seep into your every pore, then moved to the thick forest of Northern Michigan, I had never felt the dense,damp, coolness of the earth before. I had never looked up and seen nothing but trees and sunlight breaking through, the quiet of the early morning, the beautiful calls of the unfamiliar birds of this area, has brought the song of Wanka Tanka to my soul, has cleansed my spirit, and left me a clean palettte for the future to carve it's indelible markings on. I leave this to you Wanka Tanka, mold me to the soul I was meant to be, direct me Father to the path that my feet meant to follow at this transititonal point of my life. i miss Oklahoma so much, although no one is left,my family is gone, I left that area to escape an addiction, I came to Michigan with a duffel bag and $100 in my pocket to try to start life over again, little did I know drugs were only the half of it, I had to learn who I was without the drugs,without the influence of a man in my life telling me who I should be, based on their idea of a "perfect" woman. My God, how good you are to me, the changes that have occured, the beauty you have introduced to my life, the mother I have learned to become, all the glory is to you Father, for without you I would have been lost with so many other on the same path. Why did you choose me to survive? The generosity, and compasssion you have shown me takes my breath, no one who knew me then , would have belived I would have been alive this many years later.I sought death,in my foolishness of youth, I preferred it to life. How much I would have missed, thank you for the mercy you showed me , undeserving as it was. My children and the love I feel for them guides my decisions, I AM SO BLESSED. I think every day of the people I left behind, suffering in the throes of drug addiction, I just lost my son-in-law to it. WHY was I spared? No one wants to be this way, HELP ME FATHER to help the ones who are left, the ones that I can help,show me the way, show me what I can do to make a differece, if one life is spared, if one family is reunited,and left whole, then show me the way to do this. THIS IS THE VERY LEAST I CAN DO !!