I was born and raised in Budapest Hungary. My upbringing was fairly normal, classical European education and Protestants upbringing but my maternal grandmother was a Catholic closet mystic. Much of her wisdom I could not understand when I was with her but she lived to be 99 year old and I understand her gentle guidance on me now at a ripe age.
All in all the Christian doctrine never made much sense to me despite my thirst for knowledge and God. As it turned out I never got my confirmation only christening. So am I a Christian or a Pagan?
I liked going to church in Europe where places of worship are majestic and old, and while I was practicing it was largely forbidden or frowned upon by the dictators of Soviet era Budapest. I guess it was ok as an act of political rebellion as long as I did not listen to the priest much.
I came to the USA at age 21 with nothing but the clothes on my back. My sponsor was also a protestant minister who was a big-time capitalist all the same. I guessed it was ok in the USA but American style religion just never suited me. I seldom attended church; I have tried Unitarian Universalism as it was the closest organized religion I could stomach. I still love those Unitarians.
. I do not wish to associate myself to any religion but if I must I guess the closest would be Mahayana Buddhism.