There is a whole lot on my mind right now and what I just thought of-like just now was what exactly had me veering toward walking on the Pagan Path.
My whole life I had become accustomed to doing what anybody and everybody else said to do, I took direction without question and I didn't even think of it, I just did whatever I was told because I didn't want to cause trouble-in daily life. Being Catholic was no problem because I wasn't able to think if it fit me, I just went along blindly. Then in college I started to really question when I was exsposed to other beliefs from my Sociology and Religion class and that was what opened the doors, along with living with a Pagan roommate who didn't mind being in the buff with other people in her house. For awhile I searched and researched, again and again I felt pulled to the Pagan Path but wasn't sure if it was geniunie because of the tendency I have to obsess over things, so I tried UU, even went to some of their services, being shy and not knowing I had Asperger's meeting and talking with people I didn't know was very awkward. Then I tried to see if being a progressive Catholic suit me which is when I joined beliefnet again, nope didn't feel a thing other than emptiness when I did go to a mass which I did for the convience of a friend and for something special. Then I eventually came to realize that Paganism was right for me. Here's why: 1) You aren't told what to believe in, you figure that out for yourself and at your own pace. 2) The Divine Feminine is just as revered and honored as the Divine Masculine ( a big one for me) 3) The idea that everyone and everything is interconnected. 4) Mother Nature is respected and honored, that it isn't our right to conquer and dominated or be better than another species just because they don't think like we do. 5) There is tolerance of other beliefs and that there isn't one path to the divine.6) There is no building to go to on Sundays, there is less of a heiarchy in some, but there are in others, my guess due to experience and knowledge. 7) That one can practice alone either due to one's own choice or due to someone's situation, like mine where I don't know anyone and also because I like doing things by myself for the most part. That's what drew me to self-identify as Pagan, as for following...practicing...alone that's a whole other subject and future post that may well be connected with my previous post on me having Asperger's and being Pagan. I'd be thrilled if anyone reads this and stays with it for this long!371d36d75e05eda735858f8e467be99c