I have learned so much in this last year.  I learned that my husband has a mental illness and it goes very deep.  I learned that I can live with it, and I want to help him.  I don't want a divorce, and yet he has served me with divorce papers.  I can't believe it, and I'm just dying inside.  I'm trying to reconcile with him, but he won't talk to me.  He won't even read my letters to him, or letters & notes from anyone else either.  No one even knows where he is.  I tried calling him tonight at least 4 times but he wouldn't answer.  I have filed a motion for Reconciliation with the court.  He will have to face me in two sessions of counselling.  I'm just drained.  How is this going to end?  I wonder.  "Jehovah hates a divorcing," says the Scriptures.  I pray that God Almighty will intervene and help us to reconcile.