I am writting a new description today because I am disappointed in myself and how stupid I have been acting. People tell me I am strong but it is not true I need to be stronger. I have found that I have a severe addiction problem. When I am stressed  or upset I drink to get drunk, and then I always do things I would never do without being drunk. My life isn't that bad but when I drink I turn into someone I wouldn't even want to be around. I have noticed this and am very ashamed of the things I have done,  What I need when I am stressed is God!!!! My life needs to turn around and I need to stay away from alcohol it will not solve the problem but only supress it for one more day and end up causing more problems due to  my heavy drinking. I always black out after I have been drinking so now I know and I pray the lord will forgive me! I need the lord and a totally different outlook on life. Please pray for my sinful soul. Lord I am sorry and forgive me for my sins and I believe I am now on the right path, HELP ME FOLLOW!!!!!