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I just found this community and desire to be a part of it. I noticed the last post was in 2010. does anyone still come here? I really need to make some friends.
hello and i just wanted to ask how do i get BP support and also depression. i dont have medical. coverage anymore.
It is a bit hard to navigate this site...but I am trying to post my first of hopefully many. I am a tad disappointed as it seems that this group is not really alive and kickaing. I have already come across a couple of sites re Bipolar with the same problem. My desire is to connect to others like me.
So, I'll introduce myself:
I have been diagnosed with BP in January 2007, but looking back I had my first major depressive episode when I was 15. I am pretty sure I have showed symptoms before then, but since I am disconnected with my highly dysfunctional family, I can't go ask. For me it is partly genetic, my mother and her mother are undiagnosed BP's. For years my GP thought I had just depressions. No-one noticed the hypomania's. It was after I got diagnosed with a serious burn-out in April 2006, ended up in the USA and received help from an amazing counselor, that it slowly became clear we were dealing with more than trauma's, depression and burn-out. I was also severely suicidal, had very real plans, where I would not be found alive. I can only say that God has spared my life, otherwise I would not have been here today.
In December 2006 my GP added another anti-depressant to the one I was already taking and as you all might know, I went of the deep end. I went to psych hospital and wanted to be admitted, but they decided I was not suicidal enough! Right... Because I was plainly going nuts with my thoughts racing 24/7, trouble sleeping, etc. I took myself off of the second anti-depressant. My counselor got me in to see a psych early January 2007 and I got my diagnosis. Blessedly the sorting of which combo of meds work for me was relatively short. I have been under good psych care since and continue to see my counslor on a weekly basis.
I am Dutch, but have lived abroad since July 1994 when I became a missionary to the Ukraine. I have lived in Poland, England, Ukraine and USA. End of June 2009 I had to renew my paperwork in order to stay in USA. I went to Canada for a day and when I returned to the USA border, Uncle Sam would not let me in again. The lawyer I had consulted gave me bad and wrong advice. So, there I was, without my meds, with just the clothes I was wearing and with my car. At the Canadian border. Where they did not let me go, unless I could prove I had a plane ticket leaving Canada. And... I júst didn't have enough money available on my credit card. Talk about stress. They nearly put me in detention. Boy, was I glad my cell had a full battery! In the end I had a ticket, no meds, no sleep for a night. Friends came over to bring me clothes, meds and take my car back with them. And I tracked back to Holland where I hadn't lived for 15 years. Talk about stress! Thankfully, I had immediate treatment for my BP upon arriving in Holland.
While in the past my moods would last even up to a couple of years, since I reached the state of being severely suicidal I am all over the place. Even with meds! My episodes will break thru them, unfortunately. I am an extreme rapid cycler now, had even several days where my mood would spike up and down several times each day. That was so horrid!!
Right now I don't have my own apartment. It is extremely difficult to find one. I am living with a family from my church. We don't know one another very well. My time here is limited, so the anxiety and stress is mounting. Because of the changes (I had temporarily housing on my own for 5 months till March 31)I went hypomanic to the extend I needed to take Seroquel to temper it down. Now I have entered a mixed state where I am insanely irritated with everything and nothing. Seroquel effectively makes me a zombie. I have dry mouth, obstipation, a memory that won't work, bloating, lead in my body, trouble talking (moving my mouth to form the words), drooping eyelids, being extremely tired. And oh, did I mention it zonks me out?
At the same time I am also working with a new pdoc. Even though he is good, it also increases my anxiety. I am exhausted after I've seen him. And there is no therapy involved, mind you! We are working on an action plan. I pretty much know the symptoms of the onset and development of my moods. The question is: when do you do something about it, and what. A good friend is involved with it, what a blessing!
Well, I've got to stop my rambling, dinner is calling!
Blessings and write to me peeps!
The Crazy Rambler
Years ago after our family suffered a tragedy I was diagnosed with dysthymia and I would say PTSD, which has lessened over the years. Yet it has left me no longer the person I once was, nor my children, now adult who they were or my husband now chronically ill who he was.
It would seem there will always be the search not to be who we were or who I was but to find who I am now and what I can really do in this situation. When someone gets hurt over and over in so many emotional and psychological ways it does leave an emptiness. Yes, when time permits I volunteer, I have not been able to work for 3 years do to being needed at home 24/7 and that is hard.
Friends that once were there have dropped off, as I feel they just can not handle being reminded of everything that has happened in our life. Which I do understand, as sometimes I feel the same way. I also do understand that it is my responsibilty to make a better life for myself as well in either case, and that if I do not it will only remain the same or worsen.
Yes, I am on medication and have and want to lessen it if I can, since I feel it keeps me in a 'no mood' feeling. Does anyone every experience the same void? Please let me know...Thank you for reading this and taking the time to understand. fergie56
Hello everyone I am Karen. I am new to the group. I have bipolar,depression and panic disorder. If any one would like to chat add me...I am really excited about seeing how others deal with like problems..I have been in and out of the hospitol because of my condition since 1998....I meet my new huband 4years ago and between us we have 5 childern. 3 are at home.He helped me with my eating disorder and somewhat with my panic but I still cant get a handle on my bipolar or depression..I feel as if something is missing...The good news is I havent been in the hospitol in 3 years ....I thank God everyday that I have found someone who understands me for the most part..
I would like to extend an invitation to anyone that is going through depression or bipolar to become friends with me. I have both. I am right this minute doing okay. But I have been going up and down on a roller coaster of emotions for quite some time. I am on Tegretol and Trazadone. I feel like they are not working but don't have funds or insurance to see a doctor. I would like to find a support group so that I don't feel alone in this. If anyone would like, feel free to invite me as a friend. Thanks.
Hi everyone, im new to pretty much the entire site. I have depression and anxiety, and im hoping to meet people who can help me or at least understand what im going through :)
Hello everybody! I am new to this group, and ould love to hear from any of you that are interested in chatting, and possibly becoming friends. Thanks, Tiger_mom
Hi Shallen, I agree with you that it may take a while for the Dr.s to find the right combination of meds. to help. When I first started my meds. way back in the early 90's, they had me diagnosed with just depression for about 2 yrs. It was my counselor who figured out it was Bipolar, PTSD, OCD, Mixed personality disorder, and one or two other things. I switched Dr.s and got the right help and meds. that I needed. One of my meds. I'm on now is Lamictal. It does help. I'm on a pretty big list of meds. right now, but they all help in the right way together so I wouldn't want to rock the boat now. I hope this helps some of y'all.
It can take a long time to find the right medicine. I've had bipolar for 10 years and for a long time the doctors just doped me up. If you are the type of bipolar where you have some manic cycles you might talk to your doctor about lamictal its helped me alot and lets me live my life. I've also heard that using herbalife health shakes and vitamins has some success with treating bipolar. However, I can't tell if it helps or not, since I've stayed on my meds when I've used it, but I've read testimonies that people have gotten completely off their meds and are only using the vitamins and shakes. Just be careful, and have faith things will get better.