Hi, my name is Hari and my depression is at the same rate it's hard when you have other issues like anxiety and social phobia. I feel bad about it all the time it just won't go away I think it's because I wasn't diagnose early and the fact I have not been being treated long enough. I had therapy for a year when I was 17-18 years old. I been this way since i was a young child like 9 years old. The depression anxiety, phobia have taken over there's things I never did or tryed because I couldn't get out of bed or wouldn't. I'm 21 and I can't even take care of myself the way I want and the way I should and it's hard to be around people even my family basically i'am in a shell with a flash light. For the last month more than twice a day I turn guys away even the ones I like because it's like who wanna be wth someone that's depressed it's bad when they thinks your turning them away because you dont like them. Some people look at depression as a excuse for being lazy or sad. I been avoiding talking about depression by lieing I would claim that I have a boyfriend or that I just gotten out of a relationship it gotten that bad. I lied and said I felted a little better so I wouldn't go to therapy it felted uncomfortable and so my therapy seem like it was working but it wasn't now i'm in the habit of lieing i'm not sure how long i been doing this or if I can stop.
Sadangel,...my suggestion would be to just keep working with your Dr. There are so many new meds out there with less side-effects than the old ones.
I really couldn't help you with prayer since that's not my thing but there are tons of people on here in groups and the forums...
I have been in the hospital, 5150 and all that and weird medication side effects....I can relate!
Persistence seems to be the key although I know that this disease can rob you of that energy to persist.
I hope you find peace and comfort. All the best to you.
Please I am asking for prayers as I have lost most of my support people due to both my deep depression and shyness have severe trouble reaching out to others, I am in with my bipolar disorder and schizoeffective disorder and not yet on the right balance of medications. I am struggling also as a single mom of a 7&5 year old who both have been diagnoised with ADHD and their mediction only helps some what. I am scared that another hospitlization maybe coming and then I don't know what I would do. As I am new to beliefnet and was wondering if you have prayer groups or chains that I could be a part of While I feel I have tied a knot at the end of my rope and am desperatly hanging from that knot I don't know how much longer I can dangle there Please Help!!!
I am new to beliefnet however depression and I go way back, not saying we are friends but, more so "battle of who gets control"... these days I'm loosing! So I am looking for supportive people that know where I am coming from.
I welcome everyone to become my friend!
Have a great day!
Victoria Boyson:Victory in the Hour of Darkness
But this is your moment, the time when the power of darkness reigns.—Luke 22:53
The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it.—John 1:5
Lately, as I hear news stories roll in with each report more bizarre than the last, it's like watching an end-time movie. I feel overwhelmed, as it often seems much too easy for darkness to overpower the light. One moral principle after another is challenged and toppled; it seems crazy, like it couldn't be real. But it is real. I wonder to myself, "When will it end? Who or what will stop it? Will we realize the danger of the darkness entering our world?"
Things are occurring so swiftly that it seems like we are powerless to affect the situation. And, indeed, things are now being set into motion for our nation and the world that will move us swiftly toward the end-time tribulation. However, these things must happen to accomplish God's ultimate purpose for this world.
Christ has a plan for us in this world, but His plan may not always look like how we have envisioned or desired it. But it's a plan we can fully trust and embrace.
You see, our Father sees things differently than we do—He sees the bigger picture. He wants more for us than a good economy or safety. He doesn't just want us safe—He wants souls rescued for eternity from Hell. He wants His Bride to walk in POWER and AUTHORITY! He wants ultimate victory for us. I didn't say, "Comfort," I said, "Victory!" And this victory is unlike anything we've been used to. I'm not speaking of an earthly victory, but something infinitely greater.
Like Christ, our Kingdom is not of this world. We are not to be moved by what we see in the natural, but are to keep our eyes on our heavenly victory! We must focus our hearts on the goals of the Spirit and not cling to the comforts of this earthly realm; they are so temporal. His Kingdom alone is eternal and that must be our continued focus.
God Never Said We Wouldn't Have Trials
Our Lord did not lie when He said, like the sparrow, He would meet our needs. He said, "Don't worry about what you eat or drink or wear" (Luke 12:22). Those are not big concerns to Him. Worrying too much about temporal things keeps us in bondage and vulnerable to the enemy. The only true freedom is to "love not our lives even unto death" (Revelation 12:11), and to be "dead" to this world, to let go of worry and fear and grab hold of our heavenly Father with all our might. Seek Him first and watch Him take care of your needs His way (Matthew 6:33).
God never promised us we would have no trials; He only said He would be with us in our trials. He promised to never leave us or forsake us (Hebrews 13:5). He'll fight for us until He sees His perfect and beautiful will come forth in us. He will never give up on us. We may want to give up but He won't, and He won't let us give up on ourselves either.
Through the fire and through the flood He's with us—providing for us and comforting us with His peace. Though the enemy rages, we can know our God is in control! Indeed, the harder the enemy rages against us, the deeper our roots sink into Christ and into His strength.
For a season, Hell may rage against us. But this is to accomplish Christ's ultimate purpose. As Christ knew He would have to endure an hour when darkness would have its way, the ultimate victory was His. The hour of darkness would produce the glory of Heaven on earth and the ultimate victory of Heaven. "After saying all these things, Jesus looked up to Heaven and said, 'Father, the hour has come. Glorify Your Son so He can give glory back to You'" (John 17:1).
While being arrested, Christ told His captors, "This is your moment, the time when the power of darkness reigns" (Luke 22:53). He knew, yes this was their moment. But it was only a moment—the final victory belonged to Christ. Evil would have its moment, but even in that moment, God's will and purpose would be fulfilled.
God is in control and He will have His way! Though the enemy rages and it seems like darkness has won, it has not! For a season and for a time the kingdom of darkness may have its way, but when you see what God can do, even in the darkest moment, you will stand back in awe.
A Testimony of Hope in Heaven
My son's best friend was killed in a car accident and we were so devastated and confused. It seemed to us like such a pointless loss until, through his death, the boy's father came to know Christ. While living, he fought constantly with his father about God, but through the tragedy of his death, he was victorious and his father gave his heart to Christ. That is ultimate victory of eternal significance that will never stop giving.
My son's friend is in Heaven now rejoicing at his victory and I'm reminded of the song "My Hope is in Heaven." It says, "Sometimes our brightest days come out of our darkest night."
Jesus warned that darkness would come and though it takes what we hold dear, it cannot take our greatest treasure—our faith in Christ. Our treasure is not of this world—our hope is in Heaven. Our joy is not bound to temporal things and our peace is eternal. Our joy is boundless even in our darkest hour.
Our worship is undeniably powerful. When we cast off worry and fear and lay our needs at His feet and dance before Him in total and complete absolute surrender, our enemy is dumbfounded. When the answer to every difficulty our enemy can throw at us is, "Jesus is Lord! God is in control!"—he is enraged.
As the onslaught of Hell rages, don't let worry take control of your tongue, but give it to praising Jesus! Wow! Again, that is ultimate victory. Then our darkest hour will become our finest hour—an hour of unfathomable glory released on the earth.
Darkness as black as night covers all the nations of the earth, but the glory of the Lord rises and appears over you. All nations will come to your light; mighty kings will come to see your radiance—Isaiah 60:2-3
As darkness has its hour, the world will become desperate, but WE WILL NOT! We will remain steadfast, completely "hidden with Christ in God" (Colossians 3:3). We worship God when our enemy expects us to crumble into disappointed, accusation and hatred against Him. Because we have the light living in us, we have hope and we have ultimate victory. As His light shines through us, the darkness makes it shine brighter and brighter. We can't help it, it's just what we do. We who know Him radiate His joy even when despair surrounds us.
How peculiar to have joy in the midst of despair. When all is lost we find out what we truly have—we find out what's truly valuable to us. "Your eyes will shine, and your heart will thrill with joy" (Isaiah 60:5).
Expect God to move! Expect Him to challenge the darkness! Expect Him to use you to change the world! We are not bound by fear, saints, but He's given us love, peace and a sound mind (2 Timothy 1:7). Even in the midst of darkness, we have victory. Darkness is given a moment, but it is only that—just a moment. On the contrary, we as Believers are given an eternal justice.
Dear friend, take His hand—take it and hold it. He has something for you. You have a mighty High Priest, Jesus, who has defeated your enemy. But you need to know that your position in the battle is to be hidden with Him in God. Though you see the enemy raging all around you, you will not fear. For you know with certainty that you have already defeated him as you stand with Christ!
But you belong to God, my dear children. You have already won a victory over those people, because the Spirit who lives in you is greater than the spirit who lives in the world—1 John 4:4
Speaking Life Ministries
I am Vickie. I have struggled with crippling depression and the accompanying fear, anger, and despondency for many years. I am on my second marriage - both men are products of abuse from their fathers, and I have taken the brunt of their anger toward their mothers who failed to protect them.
I work in a public health department where, basically, thuggery is the accepted and protmoted form of management. It all gets to be overwhelming at times, to the point of feeling that my very soul is being drowned. The best survival skill I have learned is to stay away from people as much as I possibly can and to ignore them as much as I possibly can.
This forum at least gives me some "safe" contact with people who are hurting, too. The world is full of folks ready and willing to inflict pain.
Hi I am Pauline
There really is Hope. I was so depressed at one time that I was despondent and psycotic
Through medication a very good psycotherapist friendship support, focusing on creativity and a husband who has stuck by me through ups and downs I have made awesome progress compared to where I was mentally and emotionally.
Thank God for loving support like you.
Let's keep up the good work for ourselves and each other.
hi, my name is Laura, and I can totally identify with most if not all of the issues mentioned; that i read since signing in, 5 minutes ago. I too, am in recovery from Depression, PTSD, and Substance Aduse. My life is generally good today, yet, I too, suffer from occassional "brain srtuggles, loss of hope , etc. I have three beautiful children and am in a constant search for tools to keep growing, finding inner sregnth, peace and happiness..I am in awe of just how wonderful life can be when you let it! I, too, was extremely challanged in the spiritual sense, but when I entered S.A. recovery for the final time in Oct.2008, I decided to turn 'it' over to the Lord..i'm learning, slowly, to trust in Him...He really does have a reason for everything he does! Would love to chat!
I have to start trying things and this seems like a good spot. I receive daily emails from beyond blue and I admire her persistance. I'm struggling, lost - battling deppression, some say bipolar. I lost my company a year ago. I've been trying to take care of my kids rather than stick them with babysitters and afterschool programs, but it's taking everything I have. I feel like I failed as a father, a husband, a person. Now I'm just praying with every once of my soul and here I am bearing myself on the internet to a group I guess. I lost contact with all my friends, don't work and so I thought this might be a good spot to try to make some friends. I am in therapy, church and a group. I could go on forever, but I guess this should be enough. Any spiritual support would be greatly appreciated. Thanks and God bless!
Hi My name is Tina. I am very new to this site, I too have Depression like most of us. I started about 18 months ago seeing a therapist.I am still trying meds to help me with me depression. I am recovery addicted from alcohol,/cocaine,/crack......My last use was on May 14,2008.....I cant believe that I am actually writing this and it feels good to talk about. I know in my Heart I need as much support with this Depression as the rest of us, I am here to learn to live with my depression I do not not know how to deal with,,,thanks for your time and have A Bless Day>>>>>>>>>>>>