Hi, y'all! A few of you probably still remember me. For whatever reason, I was unable to get back online after the technical transition in January. I tried numerous times, and today I tried again on a whim. A new enrollment page came up, so I enrolled as "Primary Colors." I have since found out that my old name, "I'd Rather Be a Dolphin," is still up as is my page, although right now I think my page is inactive. I just wanted to say hello...have missed a lot of you and have wondered how you have been doing. I'm really happy to say hello again, and I hope everyone is doing well. That's about it for now. Hopefully, someone will see this note and pass my greeting along. My grandson will be here shortly to watch "GI Joe," with me, so I will end here. Take care and blessings to all! Oh, my doxies are doing great...and I have moved to Austin. Lin :)

Hello Beyond Blue,
I'm on a journy to happiness. I was lost for years and really was looking for someone to help me through depression and anxiety. I now attend a Mental Health Center for my needs. I'm realizing that I can be happy. The suffering was recognized by professionals and they insisted that I did the right. I now take Meds.(I've never done Meds. before) That kind of scared me. But with Therapy and group meetings with others like me I feel I'm finally beyond blue. That you for listening.I appreciate it.

Hello, I'm new to the group but I've been reading BeyondBlue for over a year. I almost died one year ago, docs gave me 10% chance to live (ha, showed them), but now I've gone into such a deep depression that I can't even get out of bed.

I don't get up, I don't go out - well, once a month I have to go to the doc to get my pain meds. I pray, I pray a bunch, and my Bible Study group prays for me all the time, even though I haven't been able to attend for over a year. One of the girls calls me at least every fortnight.

I am working with the Mental Health Helpline nurse doing "talk therapy". It helped some, at least got me out from under the mountain, but I keep trying to crawl back under it. She keeps pulling me back but I'm getting tired. She is going to take me for a drive this coming Mon, I think to help break the cycle of sleeping, sleeping, sleeping.

I don't even eat much because I don't want to get out of bed. Therefore, yep, I'm getting dehydrated which exaberates depression and my bodily systems don't function properly because they don't get any nurishment.

I have a good husband I have been married to for 7 years. I moved down here to Australia to marry him as I met him over the internet. That's ok - it's ok. He is starting to have a hard time with me being in bed for a year though. We do have separate rooms since 3 yrs ago due to my horrendous sleeping habits, patterns. I just read all I can to try to stay positive but I don't know how to go about getting out of bed and functioning.

I feel so darned LAZY and I never used to be. I had to retire due to my illness a year ago and I loved my job. I lost my Mother a few months ago, right before my 63rd birthday and I couldn't even go back to the States for her funeral, so I have had no closure. I still think I can pick up the phone and call her, then I remember, no I can't.

I don't know why I'm writting this. It is way past 10 days since the last one on here, I don't even know if it will go through. All I do is sleep, I'm so sick of it, what is the point if I'm just laying in bed all day, doing nothing, no housework in a year, husband doesn't lift a hand toward "women's" work. He was born and raised on a sheep station in New Zealand so his ideas of women's and men's work is a bit archaic.

He hates my cat I rescued a couple months before I got sick. We have a bird so he won't let the cat out of my bedroom. So me and Pudi are basically prisoners in my bedroom. Poor little thing has only 1/4 of a queen sized bed to live her life in. 1/4 is for my books I read and 1/2 is for me. She is able to get in the window when I open it and she does lay there a lot. I feel sorry for her and should give her away but I love her so much and she cuddles me and loves me too. So here we are.

I Thank God my husband bought me a laptop or I would just end it. At least I can converse with my sisters and daughter and other people I meet. And I read my Beliefnet almost constantly. It is what got me out of my "vast hole". I read everything I could find that was inspiration, encouraging, etc, on a 24/7 basis. Then I started feeling better and branched out to games and started feeling down again so I'm going straight back to what I did before.

Something has to break through sometime, somehow. I just wish GOD would give me a sign or something, or kick me out of bed and show me the kitchen or vacuum cleaner. But so far He hasn't and I wonder why? Oh well, this is long enough - sorry guys. Just spewing...I ask God's Blessings of peace, love, and encouragement to you all. He is out there, I think I'm just lost right now.

(Pic is of my Mother, my daughter, my grandson, and my grandaughter who is severely handicapped, but loved so much more for it.)

Hi, i'm new and i'm here because i'm blue and I been this way awhile. I'm only 21 and I feel like life isn't worth it I been depress since I was like 11.
I suffer from deep depression and social anxiety it's very hard for me to be around people and it's hard to hold a conversation with anyone. Going out and meeting someone is a hard task for me it's like jumping off a plane but for people without the issue it's like washing their hands.
Sorry if it sounds like i'm complaining I just want to talk about it. I don't leave home at all I don't work or go to school not that I can mentally do that it's hard for me to leave out my room I did therapy and took medication but I can't afford neither didn't seem to work. Chatting online is even hard to do I feel like i'm alone. I had to drop out of highschool because I wouldn't leave home and now that i'm a adult I got to take care of myself and thats hard when I didn't finish school and never worked and can't physically and mentally do the work i'm mentally drained. Everything seem out reach and push to the side learning and thinking gives me migraines. I keep telling myself if I would have got up i would be able to handle a job at least get one. I cry at night and don't sleep much or eat much and still obese.
Missing everyone that pass away 2 uncles 2 aunts 1 great-grandmother 1 grandfather 1 great uncle 1 older cousin 1 great- aunt and my cat all died between 2003-2008 I can't take it anymore it's too much I can't sleep and when I do sleep it's a long time my family usually don't see me until bed time or next morning. I don't have friends never did i'm not comfortable around anyone thats not immediate family. I don't talk on phones and I just be in my room alone laying down not sure if any doctor can fix my problem.


Sorry so long there's so many issues I didn't really know I had. Anyone wanna know more of my pathetic life send me a message.
MY name is Jahari.