Group Details
Group Forum
-
God's Greatest Gift Forgivness God bestows upon us all many gifts for us to share And the gift of forgivness is the way we show we care ... more
-
Hello, Beyond Blue Friends! It seems like in the Great Switch of 2009, the last journal entry was lost that contained the idea for h ... more
-
I am just testing to make sure this is the Beyond Blue Journal and not my personal one. And now I am testing to see how easy it is to edit. ... more
-
What do you think ... should we do community journaling? Whatever that is?
Group Bulletin Board
Leave a Comment | View All Comments
|
|
Hi, i'm new and i'm here because i'm blue and I been this way awhile. I'm only 21 and I feel like life isn't worth it I been depress since I was like 11. |
|
|
A prayer: Father I thank you for all the tests, trials, and burdens put on our hearts and spirits that help us grow stronger in our faith each day. We are not whole and complete without those, without your love, or without the chance to serve our purpose in your glory. I ask that you touch many more hearts through us all this next week, and through our stories shared. Give me the strength to get this started with my story of your love in my life. Let us all, your children that we are, emerge from this renewed and refreshed. In your son Jesus name I pray. Amen! |
|
Hi, I'm having a horrible time right now, dealing with the whole toxic friend thing AGAIN. I received an email invite to her "housewarming party" given by a person I know. In it, she expressed that she realizes I have kind of bowed out of this friends life and how she would be SO HAPPY if I showed up...I'm not a light switch that can be turned off and on according to this person's mood or needs. I have been deeply hurt in the past and this is more salt in the unhealed wound. I keep crying. I keep asking God, "why is this happening? Why?" all I can do is cry. I know the person who invited me to the party has been told UNTRUTHS about me, making me look like the bad guy...that hurts, but I can live with it. I just wish this hurtful people would leave me alone...I just wish I didn't hurt so much. I just wish God would give me a break... |
Hello, I'm new to the group but I've been reading BeyondBlue for over a year. I almost died one year ago, docs gave me 10% chance to live (ha, showed them), but now I've gone into such a deep depression that I can't even get out of bed.
LifeismineI don't get up, I don't go out - well, once a month I have to go to the doc to get my pain meds. I pray, I pray a bunch, and my Bible Study group prays for me all the time, even though I haven't been able to attend for over a year. One of the girls calls me at least every fortnight.
I am working with the Mental Health Helpline nurse doing "talk therapy". It helped some, at least got me out from under the mountain, but I keep trying to crawl back under it. She keeps pulling me back but I'm getting tired. She is going to take me for a drive this coming Mon, I think to help break the cycle of sleeping, sleeping, sleeping.
I don't even eat much because I don't want to get out of bed. Therefore, yep, I'm getting dehydrated which exaberates depression and my bodily systems don't function properly because they don't get any nurishment.
I have a good husband I have been married to for 7 years. I moved down here to Australia to marry him as I met him over the internet. That's ok - it's ok. He is starting to have a hard time with me being in bed for a year though. We do have separate rooms since 3 yrs ago due to my horrendous sleeping habits, patterns. I just read all I can to try to stay positive but I don't know how to go about getting out of bed and functioning.
I feel so darned LAZY and I never used to be. I had to retire due to my illness a year ago and I loved my job. I lost my Mother a few months ago, right before my 63rd birthday and I couldn't even go back to the States for her funeral, so I have had no closure. I still think I can pick up the phone and call her, then I remember, no I can't.
I don't know why I'm writting this. It is way past 10 days since the last one on here, I don't even know if it will go through. All I do is sleep, I'm so sick of it, what is the point if I'm just laying in bed all day, doing nothing, no housework in a year, husband doesn't lift a hand toward "women's" work. He was born and raised on a sheep station in New Zealand so his ideas of women's and men's work is a bit archaic.
He hates my cat I rescued a couple months before I got sick. We have a bird so he won't let the cat out of my bedroom. So me and Pudi are basically prisoners in my bedroom. Poor little thing has only 1/4 of a queen sized bed to live her life in. 1/4 is for my books I read and 1/2 is for me. She is able to get in the window when I open it and she does lay there a lot. I feel sorry for her and should give her away but I love her so much and she cuddles me and loves me too. So here we are.
I Thank God my husband bought me a laptop or I would just end it. At least I can converse with my sisters and daughter and other people I meet. And I read my Beliefnet almost constantly. It is what got me out of my "vast hole". I read everything I could find that was inspiration, encouraging, etc, on a 24/7 basis. Then I started feeling better and branched out to games and started feeling down again so I'm going straight back to what I did before.
Something has to break through sometime, somehow. I just wish GOD would give me a sign or something, or kick me out of bed and show me the kitchen or vacuum cleaner. But so far He hasn't and I wonder why? Oh well, this is long enough - sorry guys. Just spewing...I ask God's Blessings of peace, love, and encouragement to you all. He is out there, I think I'm just lost right now.
(Pic is of my Mother, my daughter, my grandson, and my grandaughter who is severely handicapped, but loved so much more for it.)
11:14 AM AST