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Thursday, February 10, 2011, 7:28 PM
When I was growing up there was little time for discussion . Hard work it was . And it started early in the morning . Night time came and all of us would kneel for prayers . I did think that was a bit too long to recete the rosary , the Ten Commandments and those of the Church .
Needless to say today I think that is what saved us . Okay quite a few of us did not walk the straight and narrow road after we left home . I'm going to enumerte things about myself . I really believed that going to church was most important . I still believe that . Going to church and going to confession by rote I just don't know how that helped . A lack of knowledge about Jesus now that is sad . It is more than sad . Why did I not know that Jesus was my greatest lover ? Why was it that the sermons I heard over the years didn't tell us about the love of God ? I'm not going to give answers to those questions .
We gain freedom as we realize that God is love . It makes us look at ourselves and we ask forgiveness for our sins He sent his Son Jesus to die for us . That is how we get abundant love . His Spirit fills us to overflowing . Boldness is our name where before we were timid and shy . Out of our cocoon we give thanks to God for our lives . We now see beauty and we are happy to be alive . Freedom comes to us when we have a repentant heart .
Tuesday, February 8, 2011, 6:31 AM
See where He stands, behind our wall. He looks in at the window, He peers through the lattice." (Songs 2:9)
In the beginning of our spiritual life God floods our souls with consolations, but before long His Love demands that we rise above the feeling level and adore Him "in spirit and truth."
So begins a kind of hide-and-seek. As the Sacred writer records, God stands "behind a wall" blocked from our view but He often "peers through the window" to give us a glimpse of His beautiful Face. At other times it is as if a "lattice" were between the soul and God; we see Him and yet we do not.
The above that I gleaned from EWTN network is well said . That has been my reflection
Monday, February 7, 2011, 11:07 PM
A very prayerful person was Sister Anne . She is now with God and his angels . I have fond memories of her . She taught preschoolers . In her sixties she was still teaching . Lots of patience , at least a lot more than what I had . It was beautiful to see her teach prayers to the little kids . And they enjoyed it . At lunch time she would ask a little tyke to say grace . Little guy looked radiant as he prayed . For sure the Holy Spirit dwelt within .
That little nun had a real sense of self . She was poor . That did not bother her . She did believe in seeking first the kingdom of God . She was kind . Pride she did have . Her coat was unusual . The colors, the fabric highly structured sleeves and shoulders . She was quite a tailor . I sew but I am not a tailor . To take pride in work well done I see that as a gift . So what is it with me ? I am hardly ever happy with what I do ?
Monday, February 7, 2011, 10:45 PM
So one has a circle of friends . How do our friends differ from those we shun ? There has to be intrinsic reasons why we shun some . Quite possibly it is something within us . Vulnerability , I think enters in . Myself I don't feel comfortable with intellectuals that repeat every word that comes out of my mouth while looking up to the celing as if this is the only way of anwering a question . I could do that too but I refuse .
Not too long ago this woman asked me ,"Who are you ." I was sort of taken aback and I just said I live here , this is my neighborhood also She stared in my eyes and asked the same question . I prayed and answered ,"I am a child of God ."
Sunday, February 6, 2011, 5:49 PM
I often hear friends say ,"I am praying for ...". It is very good to pray for those that we know need prayer . It does seem to me that we have to get out of our comfort zone and visit those who we know need a visit .
This past week I haven't been able to visit anyone because of the infamous flu . I think it's kindness not to give it to anyone . In lieu , I watched and listened to good sermons on television . Sadness came over me when a friend called to say a mutual friend was in the hospital . Suffering from depression since she had extensive surgey that just wasn't healing , she attempted suicide .
I think I might have known deep down that something was not right with her . She seemed to have lost speech . That reminded me of another woman that suffered much because of molestation as a child . Her family found that out adter she died . The poor soul could'nt talk about the abuse .On her wedding day she cried when her father was inapropriate with her . Tears flowed while he was motioning to pick confetti from her bossom . That man was drunk for his daughter's wedding . Most days he was drunk.
Married life wasn't kind to her . She committed suicide . I'm not blaming anyone . I think at one time I might have . In Ephesians it is written , " Our Fight is not against flesh and blood but against the sovereingties the piowers of evil in the skies .
Lets say a thing or two about me . Why didn't I commit suicide when it seemed there was no where to go to stop the abuse . I wanted to . My consciene told me that it was wrong. I wanted to die when I was seven years old . I thank God today that I didn't .
Friday, February 4, 2011, 10:46 PM
Yahweh , I know you are near
ALways walking by my side
You touch me from afar
And you lead me in ways everlasting
All I could do this evening was hum the above . I enjoyed that song at a prayer meeting years ago . It's too diffivult for me to get there now . I've been a singer since early years . Many enjoy my voice . For some reason I shy away from the church choir . My family thinks I should join . I guess I don't feel part of the pact .
We have moved to a new church this past month . The priest is very nice . He is jolly . At times I think he is so tiny that it would be possible for him to fly . I use to fly in my dreams that is . I didn't always like it this flying to the old homestead in the middle of the night . Trying to resolve life's poor deals ? I think the subconscious does its thing .
For me music helps my moods . Singing is uplifting . Going to a group was much better than finding a therapist . That is what quite a few have told me
Wednesday, February 2, 2011, 11:00 PM
"But go and learn what this means: 'I desire mercy, not sacrifice.' For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners" (Matthew 9:13).
I was thinking about this Scripture tonight as we were watching television . I heard a few comments that raised more than my eyebrows . Comments like he deserves to die . Since when do we know the heart of anyone ? We are asked to be merciful period . If a man / woman goes to the electric chair that is not merciful . They should be given enough time to repent . At least that is what I think
Tuesday, February 1, 2011, 7:46 PM
Sometimes we have to speak up . Families are full of secrets that I know . Oddly enough they have a difficult time accepting others idiocyncrecies . They are righteous in their own eyes . When asked what I thought of the "FaMILY" I thought about it and I said ," pride reigns ."
This is not fiction . Some want to be seen as good in this world . They forget to treat their children with love and compassion. Then when a son of theirs leaves the bees nest I wonder what he is referred to . An abomination perhaps ?
Lately I was asked to pray for a particular person that I happen to love very much . I certainly prayed for her and kept her in my heart . I found myself drawing hearts. I asked Iesus to bless all the hearts I had drawn . I prayed for a deep conversion of heart for all . That included my own heart
I am called a preacher at times . What does that mean ? Sometimes I think we are called to say our words of truth . The truth that comes from Jesus . And how do we know they are the real words of Jesus ? Putting on the mind of Christ . That will come when we read his Words and we pray for his Spirit to guide us .
Saturday, January 29, 2011, 10:44 PM
Almighty and eternal God,
those who take refuge in you will be glad
and forever will shout for joy.
Protect these soldiers as they discharge their duties.
Protect them with the shield of your strength
and keep them safe from all evil and harm.
May the power of your love enable them to return home
in safety, that with all who love them,
they may ever praise you for your loving care.
We ask this through Christ our Lord.
And Lord I praise and give thanks for I know you answer prayers Amen
Friday, January 28, 2011, 9:16 AM
Sometimes I think I know all about myself .Then a sort of epiphany comes over me and I realize that I don't really know myself . God has a way of showing us who we really are within . The other day I prayed and told my Lord that I would be satisfied to know that he is walking with me . See I pray and I pray in sickness and in health and yet I doubt . How close to the Lord am I when I am doubting ?