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Saturday, April 23, 2011, 9:54 PM
What a retreat it had been . How fortunate to have had a retreat master . Father Jack was an older man , quick, severe in some ways He did have a temper probably due to his Irish descent. He did radiate with a ready smile when he welcomed us . We met in a convent and he spoke to us of Saint Ignatius of Loyola . I acquired a profound liking for this saint . I would speak to him occasionally .
The retreat was based on specific scripture . I let the WOrd of God permeate me . I t was quite the journey and I am profoundly grateful for having had the opportunity to grow with this priest and friends . Some of these people are still in my life . That retreat came to an end on Easter morning . We had been told to take a picture of the rising sun on that day . I was outside by myself wondering if the sun would rise . My youngest son came to sit with me while I contemplated the sky . He saw the struggle and nudged me to trust . God is here , Mom .
And today I know that God is here . The Spirit of God truly moved me during that retreat that lasted a year . I truly experienced his love and care . I did shed tears and that was a gift .
Saturday, April 23, 2011, 9:16 PM
We all share a common humanity; we do not need to win in order to exist. We are not fully independent. Other people are not rivals but partners. The purpose of life, then, is not to climb up the ladder, trampling on those we leave behind, but to help each person to discover his or her unique place in the body of the community, to recognize each person's gifts but also their particular difficulties.
The abpve is by Jean Vanier . To recognize the gifts but also their particular difficulties . For me that means that I have to know myself before I can help another . Knowing my difficulties and bringing them to Jesus in time I can see myself differently . I must say I have more confidence in myself since the Baptism in the Holy Spirit . Praying and praising daily keeps me going
Friday, April 22, 2011, 10:16 PM
She was svelte
Married at nineteen
A farm girl
With a grade eight education
She had worked
In a creamery
Her folks had cows
They sold the cream
The owner's son
Had eyes for her
Too poor for a dowry
She married a farmer
Who had migrated
to northern Canada
He was strong
Most honest in his dealings
She had a difficult life
She loved her family
Worked harder than a man
Fed the livestock
Her children also
She made potato pies
When the pantry
Was near empty
She did what had to be done
Sewed into the night
So I had a top to go to school
She was my mother
I still have doubts
About my birth
That's another story
I have never been sure
Of my real identity
Years of lies impacts a person
Doudts arise and you no longer know
Who you really are .
In Jesus I know I am loved
Friday, April 22, 2011, 9:29 PM
I saw in front of me a big cross..., I thought that my sacrifice was nothing in comparison to His.
I offered myself entirely and I do not withdraw the given word.
God's will whatever it may be, this is my joy, my happiness, my peace.
I will never be able to thank enough.
I cannot say but these words: 'My God, your Glory'.
- Blessed Maria Gabriella (1914-1939) Memorial day April 23
And I would say knowing the Holy Spirit is my joy , my happiness and my peace . Turmoil we will have . Lets keep our eyes on Jesus .
Friday, April 22, 2011, 8:56 PM
He was a cobbler and so much more
Watching him intently
His physiognomy spoke volumes
Meticulous he was in his work
The soft tears rolling down his cheeks
A feeling of being present
Was it prayer or resignation
Poverty can keep one close to God
Poor he was in material things
A cobbler for a smal village
His home a one and a haft brick paper house
Ice cold in the winter
On rain days the roof leaked
Hard working during the week
On the railroad far from family
Those days are done with
Now he has a room in a mansion
Jesus is with him
His name was Joe
Friday, April 22, 2011, 5:06 PM
This forgiveness that many write about is it the real thing ? I remember sharing some years back that forgiveness was an act of the will . I was attacked for that . In this man's mind a former former Minister it was not an act of the will . He never told us what it was for him . I am open to suggestions when I am sharing about me or my beliefs .
I read today on a favorite network that if one remembers the abuse one has not forgiven . That person may think he has forgiven but he hasn't . Okay me here, how one comes to such a conclusion I don't know . I do know one thing it did free me to forgive . I did that by speaking to God , I did that by forgiving myself also for anything I may have done . Asking God to bless this person and to free this person totally .
My memories healed . It was not instantaneus . Do I still remember the abuse ? Yes I do and it doesn't hurt anymore . Before the forgiveness I use to have horrific migraine headaches . That had to do with the rejection I had felt as a child .
Friday, April 22, 2011, 6:19 AM
There was purpose for Jesus pain . Do I love my Father in heaven ? Do I trust Him ? Do I know His will for me ? Jesus show me how to love ....
Thursday, April 21, 2011, 11:04 PM
That's a quote from Pope Benedict . We don't hear God because we don't want to be disturbed . That is so true . Comfort we have and we want to bask in it It is not living the Gospel message . "Go out into the world and make disciples of all nations ...."
Thursday, April 21, 2011, 4:19 PM
I had an appointment with an internal medecine specialist today . I am happy that nothing needs to be done with the goiter . i asked him what the intermittent pain in my cheek was all about . I have tic douloureux . The cause a hit on the head by a falling sign . What next ? I will not take more meds for that pain Hoping it goes away .
Taking some friends out for dinner tonight . Probably going to a church service with the priest a member of the extended family . A pretty fair day so far .
Thursday, April 21, 2011, 5:34 AM
O gentle Jesus , we pray that we may be united to you the whole day . Fill us merciful God with the divine light of the HOly Spirit that we may give glory to you in all things and in all people . Yes, we give glory to you for the labour of all men , for the food that strengthens our body , for the light that brightens our day , fro the air that we breathe .
O Divine Lover of men /women , we offer to your Majesty , glory , worship and praise in union with the myriads of angels and heavenly spirits , the saints and the Virgin Mary , all singing : Holy , Holy,Holy ,God of Hosts , for all eternity . Amen