Turned 50!  Must learn to live outside the box. Parents have passed; sister-like friend passed; teenage daughter away, need to open up reachout and just "be" .Live in the skin I am in; stop fighting for perfection for it does not exist; allow people to be who they are and befriend, if it fits or leave alone; must learn to share ideas and realize that there is a world outside of my immediate comfort zone which is no longer comfortable.

God is the master of all that is good and placed me at this time and this place in his awesome creation. Must stop wasting time and just live!!!!!!

Hope to meet, via internet others who have similar interests, dreams, aspirations...hopes, ideas, etc.

This is the first summer in 16 years that I am not working, just learning to deal with "me"!

Hope to learn how to be tactfully honest and say no when I don't want to do something instead of always feeling like I am the eternal "mother" or caregiver who must  say yes all of the time.

I'd say it's about time, don't you think; after all, I am a half a century old and need to think for a change, about me!!!!!

July is over and I am blest to report, all is well. i have braces now and am finally really taking care of my weight. This is such a wonderful journey. Of course there are pit falls but that is ok bedcause I am learning daily to be in the moment and be grateful for the little things. i did not gain all of my weight in a day, nor did I become the woman i am in one day!!!! Love to God, me, and all...