Friday, November 7, 2008, 9:47 PM
Well, the time has come to take a break from this site. The very site that brought Larry and I together which we are both grateful for of course.
But at this time I feel that here is too much drama, too much she said/he said and way too much cynicism,talking behind ones back and dishonesty in some of the groups and between so called "friends"- It's disgusting really and all of this has made me think about my life and what is really important.
I need a break period. I will periodically check my messages on here, and for those who happen to have my yahoo email feel free to email me there.
I'm taking this time take care of myself mentally, physically, emotionally and spiritually. I'm also taking this time to be with my boys, Larry, my immediate family,my cat, my close friends and to just enjoy life out there because after all there is life outside this site.
Thank you for the opportunity to get to know all of you. I have learned so much and have enjoyed your friendship.
Peace, Love and Light,
Sunday, November 2, 2008, 7:28 PM
Not necessarily in this order :
Not having that annoying post nasal drip cough
Lazy day watching a movie,reading the paper ,cooking and now watching my youngest making blueberry muffins
Not feeling depressed and frustrated in general
Taking the step to seek help for my mental health
My cat even when he is very , very whiny
My immediate family: sisters, mother, niece and nephews
The support and prayers from friends
Been in the moment
Friday, October 31, 2008, 10:48 PM
I'm off today, wanting to be lazy but knowing I have tons to take care of ,slowly but surely I'll start by making a few phone calls, pay some bills, clean the house, shower and eventually make a stop at the local library to vote. ( yes folks, there is such as thing as early voting in Miami ) and maybe ,just maybe I'll squeeze a nap in later on before the rugrats are home from school!
Still thinking about Tina Turner's concert last night at the AA Arena. She was AMAZING and I still can't believe she is 68 yrs old soon to be 69! Talk about needing someone to inspire you to loose some weigh, she is an inspiration for sure... And those legs and hair OMG!
I'm feeling better than I have been lately. Looking forward to the long weekend, time spend with the my boys, niece and both nephews tonight ( I'm going to go trick or treating with them later) and talking to Larry later on this evening .
Wishing everyone a wonderful day and Halloween evening ahead and a great weekend
Peace -- Ana
Monday, October 27, 2008, 9:11 PM
I did not sleep well last night at all, but woke up this morning ready to face the world and decided I was going to have a good day and I did. It was busy at work and I'm glad because it made ther day go by faster.
5 things I'm grateful for today:
My boys even when the youngest has been rude and is not listening!
The support, encouragement and prayers from everyone on here and IRL -- THANK YOU!
My niece and both of my nephews.
Sunday, October 26, 2008, 4:45 PM
Trying to fight the urge to crawl into bed and hide from the world , I decided to go for a walk.
It's a nice day here in Miami and any other day I would have walked around the lake but today it was impossible. I started thinking about things,my life and myself and what is going on around me, with me and other things as well.
I'm feeling numb and that is just how it is today. I do not feel like talking, cooking , cleaning or even listening to anyone right now, but I have kids and they need me. Trying to put on a happy face for them and keep the tears from streaming down my face , it has not been easy for me today at all.
Physically: I'm tired
Mentally: I'm exhausted
Emotionally: I'm numb
Spiritually: I'm not sure
I chanted a bit this morning and had (( Kelly)) in my thoughts. I hope you are feeling better BTW!
I do not expect anyone to read this let alone anyone to comment on it. it's a hole that I'm in and I got myself into it and will eventually get out. I felt the urge to write so that is why I'm here.
I know that I'm strong and have been through a lot in my life. I have survived a lot and I'm grateful for all that I have , just not feeling well.. wanting to fly away for a bit ...