Reading your profile made me relive my own experience and gave me a wonderful smile. Good luck on your journey. You are already on your way to meeting amazing and inspiring people.
Sam (sorry for the double post.)
I love you. I love who you love. You are a beautiful person. You wanna know how I know? Because God made you in his image! I have two things to say. "Jesus said unto him, thou shalt love the Lord thy God wih all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind." "And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself."Mat.22:37,39 Actually I didn't say it first but Jesus did say if you do these two things, ye do well! GOD BLESS!
I am glad to hear that you do feel alive in your life. That is wonderful. Because life is too short to always feel bad about ourselves and to live in the past.
May God always bless you and provide all of your needs.