Growing up my mother and the rest of my family believed in God, But we never went to church and I grew up in a very disfunctional family. Most of my life I've endured nothing but pain and cruel people that pretented to care but dindn't care at all about me. My father died of aids in 95' which crushed me. Before he had died my mother got with someone else who inflicted a lot of pain on me. She always bad mouthed my father. I guess to make a long story short I spend most of my life lost and confused as to what was true and what wasn't. I guess I joined this community hopeing to find friends that share my faith and are generally good people. I have some health issues and do to my messed up childhood I want to start going to church but I have severe depression and anxiety that prevents me to leave my house most of the time. I just want to live better and be happier. My goal is to finish school and be a vet assistant. That's why I'm currently going for my Ged and therapy.